I think the most obvious sign of it is this month only having one music post (which kinda blew up and got me feeling like I should have more faith in my fellow Starlights), but I’ve been feeling like I’ve been pushing myself too hard with my routine, especially in terms of prayer, so I went and restructured it. I’m not going to share all the details about it, but I will say that the centerpiece of it is turning my daily journal writing (and handwriting maintenance) from random self-loathing to gratitude listing. Not only will I be more pushed to focus on the positives of my daily life, it will still help expose what I need to improve on. So far, specifically in the one to two weeks I’ve been doing it, I think I can say that it’s been helping me be more motivated and focused about my daily activities and more open and flexible to variations changing circumstances offer me, taking the days for granted less and all.
Still, there are matters like how I wrote and posted smut for the first time. And of all things, it’s hololive smut. It’s also something that reeks of how cishet I actually am, even with the digestibility it gained thanks to its beta reader, so at least it’ll be something that has the potential to disturb the two sides I’m playing, I guess? And out of some attempt at prudence and the like, that stuff goes on only one site, which, along with the identity of the beta reader and to emphasize said attempt, I will neither name nor link in this post. And especially considering that that one smut piece may not be the last one I’ll be posting, please remember that I can’t exactly stop you from digging up the truth yourself and even exposing it to the public, though, whether I like it or not. I’d also like to say that I’d like to discuss sexual stuff with humble positivity more, whether in private or in public.
Now, back to posts on this blog this month, there’s another Bear Lords It Over You update where I also play the Devil again, and then there’s a reflection that spawned with the help of Sunday readings that also included the part where Abraham interceded for Sodom and Gomorrah. I’m glad that this blog this month got more filled, but at the same time, I feel like when I was trying to handle producing my music posts all by myself, pretending especially to myself that I could do more than what I could actually do. And now I’m thinking that even if I made the right choice leaving all those Discord servers I left, even if I could actually do even more than I can right now, I have to remember that I still need other people, and what matters is that I find the ones I can be more and more myself around, not hoard as many apparent friends as possible. I hate having to face the error part of “trial and error,” but I gotta accept that that’s how looking for good friends will go, and that making friends is just the beginning of friendship.
Other stuff this month worth noting here? Well, it’s not much again, but I did manage to do some streaming this month. Also been figuring out how to more quickly finish a few harder maps in Valkyria Chronicles, already at endgame in my playthrough of Hyperdimension Re;Birth2, and I have to remember to have a lot of water for when I push my throat to the limit by doing my cheap voice acting for The Silver Case. Also got some new meme vids, with my return to holomemeing also being the second catschais meme compilation video I got featured in. And speaking of more of my YouTube stuff, my “Ijimekko Bully” vocal cover has gone past 100 Likes on top of being my channel’s most Liked and second most viewed video right now, and my channel has already gone past 250 subscribers as well. Again, thank you very much for the humbling support.
As for plans for the following month, I think I’ll be able to upload at least one music post, which will be an English cover of a Japanese song, specifically a KagePro song because hey, it’s August. And August is also the month I consider this blog’s and therefore The Overlord Bear’s anniversary, which will be nine years old at that point. I’m also planning to post some poems I wrote, and hopefully, there’ll be a Bear Lords It Over You update featuring a different villain. I’m also not sure if I’ll have the strength to write fanfics and reviews to post here next month.
And now, I’d like to ask for honest constructive feedback again. And again, may God Almighty keep on helping us all.
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