You know, I guess having tuned into holostars English as much as I have so far filled my time even better than I expected, considering how stressed I was by traveling around for my work ATM card and having to deal with my immediate family’s house’s Internet connection being hard to work with in terms of streaming. Call me shallow, especially since the work I’m aiming to do with the practice isn’t really up there in terms of secure ways to earn a living, but yeah, been having the itch to practice streaming even more than I expected, especially with stabler hardware, as shown by my more recent Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth2 and The Silver Case stream episodes in particular, with the Valkyria Chronicles stream episodes being a contrast out of great luck as well, long stream times aside. Though I also found myself pushing myself too hard about participating in the fandom again while getting into Tempus, trying to commit to a fan Discord server until I found myself burnt out around a crowd again. Makes me wonder why I still try to do these attempts at making a name for myself when I could just shut up and game and read and watch with all this money I’m getting…Oh, yeah, I wanna have bros and rivals I can make worthwhile art with, which Tempus helped me understand and appreciate further along with other parts of my self. There’s also getting the girl, because hey, I’m actually cishet trash. I guess because of that madness as well, I’m feeling lucky that those meme vids and vlogs of mine didn’t get a single update before this post. I mean, I’ve been feeling like the creep I’ve been struggling to overcome some more with them, you know? And the moments when people actually have been out for my blood are way rarer than I like to think. Now that’s what’s truly the most frustrating thing about me lately.
But more on the bright side, I’d like to send thanks to AK Enoch for having me in a fun recent video of his, which is about the so-called “perfectly cut scream.” Been over a year since my playlist of others’ shows I’m featured in got updated, too. And I honestly haven’t been tuning into his content much, so yeah, I’m surprised that he still has that much trust in me. Then again, I guess I can make stuff like this Bear Lords It Over You vid. And then there’s how this blog is already nine years old.
Also being another confidence boost is the feedback I’ve been getting on my English cover of Izuru Kanade’s “Monologue in a row.” A freaking difficult production to work on, and I’m wishing that someone would outdo me in covering the song in English, but still. I’d also like to give a shout-out to RingNin, a skilled, hardworking, and modest Youtaite whom I first encountered showing appreciation for my Kagerou Day/Azami birthday commemoration release that is my English cover of “days.”
And hey, I got to post four poems this month! I got one with the love-and-war theme, one with the love-and-treasure theme, one with the death-seeking theme, and one about, well, words. And so far, there’s one more I consider ready for upload in my production queue, which, needless to say, will show up on this blog next month.
As for more talk about plans for next month’s blog posts, I’m also hoping to post one or two music uploads and, surprisingly, one fanfic! Even more surprising is how they all started out of impulse! Praise and thanks be to God Almighty very much again for that and more, then!
So yeah, I’m itching for some more honest constructive feedback again. And may He keep on helping us all!
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😀 At least your life isn’t boring!
I can identify with Internet connection and cash flow/income issues. This household has (usually) a fairly fast connection. The regional infrastructure, however, still gets glitchy when it rains. That situation is improving – slowly – but I occasionally get the jitters sometimes, and that’s another topic.
As for “shallow?” As an American, I can hardly believe I’m saying this: but there’s more to life than a high-paying job and/or steady income. There’s nothing intrinsically wrong with both or either. But I am still glad, usually, that I didn’t experience a ‘real’ career or achieve what my culture calls “success.” Most likely, I am profoundly unfit for either – and as it is, my life hasn’t been boring. At all. 😉 And that’s yet another topic.
I’m finally dragging myself into getting caught up with blogs, email and the like.
It’s good to hear that you are progressing – and best wishes with your efforts.
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Thank you so much for your thoughtfully encouraging words, Mr. Gill! My life’s still got its fun, anyway, and somehow, I’m gradually feeling less afraid about all that fun here on earth ending someday. Still got a long way to go, though, so yeah, wishing us more strength and worthwhile times! And glad to know that you’re keeping up well with what matters to ya! 😀
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