Happy Birthday to the Word That Became Flesh, and may He challenge and guide this wannabe writer and artist and entertainer and more into being more lovingly careful with his words, among other things, for I often put too much emphasis on the “careful” part, and like my fellow fools, I was born to not just be loved but also love. And I feel like He’s been doing that work freaking well even before this latest demand of mine, most especially with how much I’ve been enjoying hololive Production and VTubers and more way beyond what my down abyssal butt ever expected through HOLOSTARS English. Those boys made me feel like I can have fun even with my slow growth and even without the rushing I honestly wanted to do with that slow growth after ending Lisa the Tearer earlier than I planned and starting streaming some time after on top of churning out all them covers and one name-your-price fan song and a bunch of other works more dumbly exhibiting my heavier desperation for power and responsibilities I don’t know how to handle. Watching the rest of HOLOSTARS on top of holoTEMPUS’s streams thanks to the latter inspiring me like how Calli and holoMyth inspired me into becoming a hololive fan on top of becoming a VTuber fan, I’ve gone as far as also watching and enjoying the second concert by the 1st-3rd Generation of HOLOSTARS, the nine whom I also call the HOLOSTARS Nine, and the 3D debut of UPROAR!!, whose variety program Jump UPROAR!! I’ve also grown to enjoy looking forward to and tuning into. I even found myself taking my Japanese, subtitling, and video editing skills to the next level because of them, considering how I’ve been translating Gamma Hizaki’s YouTube Shorts and how I’ve started clipping VTubers. Combine that with stuff like the appreciation for my HOLOSTARS covers, especially the ones for Kaika Sengen, Monologue in a row, and Silent Night Requiem, and here’s this freaking motivated me who feels like he has an improving sense of direction now. Yes, I’m pretty scared about coming out with skeletons like how down abyssal I am about the Live ladies in the process, especially by hinting to you about the fact that I’ve been writing and posting smut starring some of them out there, and how I realized that I’ve been watching the Live girls and the Stars boys way more shallowly than I thought until the Tempus boys came around. But I’m reassured about my capability and need to do better, especially as a man, by the Stars boys’ ability to be responsible with the lesser power they have, so much that my interest in following the girls got renewed and this piece of fanfiction starring Tempus and Kronii got made. Perhaps this meme vid and this vlog can give you a better idea about my improvement this year, too.
But if you’re looking for more signs of improvement that are posted on this blog and aren’t just HOLOSTARS content, then you might want to look at my other stuff from this month first, them being the one TRY for this year and my latest collab cover. As for categorized older stuff from this year, there are:
- the revival of my poetry
- the more straight-up roleplay vid series I started
- two Calli covers: Red (Lo-Fi Version) and Kamouflage
- four Jin (Shizen no Teki-P) covers: Erase, MERMAID, ZIGI, and days
- two Suisei covers: comet and Her Trail on the Celestial Sphere
- two remixes of original tunes by fellow holo fan creators: Joshua Hartshorn’s Faceless Entertainers and Raining Marbles’s Again again, and again
In terms of individual older stuff from this year, I recommend:
- the Sparks of Joy cover
- the villain remix
- the FACT cover
- the wanting, getting, wanting remix
- The More Humiliating Implications of Praying
- Masqueraded Goodbyes
- the Top of the World cover
- The Human Text and The New Author
- the TSUNAMI cover
- When A Villain Really Asks For It
- the Re:Hello world (English ver.) cover
And looking at the 2021 review post, I guess I have at least a bit more evidence that I went above and beyond my overall expectations and/or went against my dumb expectations for myself and my Tobbyworks this year. As for my expectations next year, I think I’d like to make more content as a fan of VTubers, especially holoPro, probably even in a way that would get me some sort of sideline, though may God Almighty help me handle that more properly if I’m meant to have that. On top of that, I think I’d like to release one or two original songs, make more time for my gaming backlog on stream and off stream, go through more of my reading backlog and maybe even my podcast-listening backlog, post one or two fanfiction pieces worth sharing here, post one TRY and one Superheroes vs God Almighty piece, and do something I’d find more healthily entertaining with my handwritten reflection habit. And while I don’t think this desire will be that fruitful this coming 2023, there’s still my desire to get a lovely lady. Whatever the case, may God Almighty challenge and guide me towards what He wants.
Now, I’d like to show my appreciation for some more ordinary life stuff that allows me to do these Tobbyworks. There’s my day job’s company doing better, and I wouldn’t be able to up my production values and my sister’s fun in life without that. There’s my more personal space I have while being mostly emotional support for my grandparents, which also contributed to my streaming ability especially. And there are my long-time friends and my immediate family I often take for granted, my loved ones who learn and do their best to support me more than I like to think. And of course, there’s God Almighty, the Word whom I underestimate and overestimate like how my fellow fools underestimate and overestimate words. May He keep on challenging and guiding as all as He wishes.
And again, this hopefully even more smartly obvious villain of a man we can healthily cancel anytime asks for honest constructive feedback, for yet another miracle. Merry Christmas, my fellow filthy animals, and may we have a Happy New Year.