Apologies, I’ve been late with the most recent monthly update on this blog. I’ve been going through a lot.
For one, I resigned from my first job, which I was in for around a month. I realized that I’ve been betraying myself a lot by worrying too much about how I look to others and trying to be someone I can’t be, causing harmful confusion. The company I worked for certainly wasn’t a bad one, but the job just didn’t fit me, and I kept on denying it to myself. Remembering my promises about giving myself a break and more time for creative works after graduation also added to the pressure against my self-deception. Praise and thanks be to God very much for my former employers’ understanding and my peaceful exit, too.
Now I’m trying to give myself a break through a life at home. It seems to mostly require me being more assertive, which I’ve been fearing because of how thin the line between assertiveness and abuse is. That fear also makes it easier for me to loathe myself, which then makes loathing others easier, thus causing me to do what I’ve been fearing to my loved ones.
Thank God very much for having that struggle help me get me back to praying the Rosary, then. It’s a nice surprise to find myself appreciating the Joyful and Glorious Mysteries more despite and because of my distress. I also had a funny time with it: I found myself praying the Rosary once again after a very long while on a day that was meant not only for the Joyful Mysteries but also for the Feast of Our Lady of the Holy Rosary.
But before all that, there was a date I had with my girlfriend Pat. Like the last time we did so, we went to the first day of this year’s Cosplay Mania as a date. It was our second date at an anime convention, and my third visit to an anime convention (I blogged about the first here a few years ago, by the way). Most of the impact it had on the aforementioned significant happenings that followed came from after our leg-numbing walk in the event halls, when we found ourselves stuck in our worries about being far away from each other again, going back to more work and less sleep, staying safe through the night trips, and more. Of course, all that wouldn’t have been so striking without the fun times that came before that.
Said fun times also involved us going in cosplay, with Pat as Ayano Tateyama and I as Shintaro Kisaragi. We’ve managed to line up with the name of the event better! Continue reading “A Cosplay Date at CosMania 2019”