Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – September 2018

This month has been a month of big and sharp ups and downs for me. Thank God Almighty very much for helping me get through it with strength and worthwhile times, then, especially with other people out there.

Still, I got a long way to go, and it’s quite a pain, but at least I can progress. More thesis research and other class assignments need to be done, but all the hard work along with all the moral support got me thinking of a likely interesting and more detailed ideas for not only my thesis but also my other pieces of homework. I also practiced rapping so hard that I got myself a sore throat and a runny nose, but I also found myself improving with it through doing IRL stuff as well, especially school stuff. And I angst in public silence with my complicated dislike for the classroom discussions I’ve been having lots lately, but at least I can still manage to reach out to my loved ones, people who’d stay with me and help me improve even as I have thoughts that piss them off or, at least, make them very worried and disturbed. Oh, and my egotistic ambitiousness be making me mix up being just and being petty, among a lot of other bad mixtures, but at least the knowledge of the good I’ll be losing and missing hits me harder later on…though that doesn’t sound as awesome as I try to make it out to be, now that I think about it again.

So yeah, apologies and thanks to y’all. You know who you are…Well, I don’t even know if you bother reading this stuff, but still. Sorry and thanks very much again. And I’m sending that to God Almighty as well, ’cause He’s always here for me and everyone else, bugging us about living truly better lives despite Him getting ignored a lot.

Now, here are my past posts from this month:

Also, I’d like to send shout-outs to Roa and Pharaoh Beatz. I worked for Roa as a translator + narrator for his short 3DCG film titled “ANIMA,” while I went tsundere over Pharaoh Beatz and his beats after he promoted himself in the comments to my FRPC No. 7 (like, I really really regret deleting his comment over there, too, so do give at least a listen or two to his fire).

As for hints about my future posts, well, Crawling to the Dawn is going nuttier with the action and drama so far, my next FRPC has me pushing my limits even more, and I still haven’t started on a video for any of my finished and video-production-queued music tracks…and I even have a building pile of spontaneously started yet still unfinished music projects, still. Original short stories? Well, the closest I have to that are my schoolworks, but that’ll take a long while before I really release them online, (especially the thesis creative output, if it’s even possible for me to publish outside the academic archives). And I haven’t even factored my gaming and my browsing there yet!

So yeah, God Almighty keep on helping us all, and I’d like to ask for honest constructive feedback yet again. Insert weird sound signifying nutty exit here. Perhaps a “Zoom!” trailing off with a “zzzzzzz…” instead of an “mmmmm!” after the “ooh” hits a high note can work…?

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Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – August 2018

School’s back, and it’s tough. Like, really tough that I feel like memeing about it, disturbingly normalized exaggerations and all. And that’s just the tip of the iceberg.

I did manage to post more Tobbyworks than last month, though. That, and if you’ve been looking at my social media and my pixiv, I’ve been posting some drawings I made as well. It’s not a skyrocket of an improvement, but it’s better than nothing, and it has some distance from nothing~ ^_^

Okay, frankly, life’s going tough for me on a sensitive and personal level right now, so yeah, I won’t be saying much about it. Here’s a list of the posts from this ending month, then:

Stress got me thinking and making more Tobbyworks, though, so yeah, hopefully, y’all be getting more from me in the near future. I need to chill out more, alright…God Almighty keep on helping us all.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – July 2018

I think the lone post of this ending month says something about how I’ve gotten into the Danganronpa series again recently. Like, even being spoiled about it is making me wanna go through it more and more, and I also feel like pieces of it, if not all of it, can be the subject of academic discussions!

But if we’re gonna talk about everything else, which aren’t as prominent as that here, well, there’s school time coming and going, with that crash course Midyear term cleared well enough and a new Academic Year starting up…and this Academic Year shall be my last as an undergraduate university student, hopefully. Considering how I’ve been doing before, I can whip up work for school on time and with decent quality, but the bigger concerns I tend to have with classes are being on time for classes and participating in class discussions. I could blame travel obstacles on the road and bad behavior in my classmates, but then again, what’s worse than being unable to clean whatever mess is around us is choosing not to clean whatever mess is within us. So yeah, I better work up my will and get help from God Almighty for that as well, because I don’t know anyone or anything else that can make my fickle will more steadfast and well-directed, among many other ordinary improvements that are beginning to look more and more miraculous to me.

Also, I had quite a Midyear term with all that dancing. I think I’ll need to watch dance tutorials and have a more formal sense of it before trying to make up some moves of my own, though…

As for music, I have new stuff being cooked up with my random finger placements and looped instrument patterns. There’s also them rap remix lyrics, particularly for certain Vocaloid songs, and there’s also them lyrics for my original tracks. Song covers can suddenly pop up, too. And as I think about my taste in music, I seem to have quite an inclination towards pop, which is weird considering how I also have the urge to clown it. I guess I should study and practice music more, then. Perhaps doing so with other people, especially the more experienced ones, would be a bigger help, too.

As for writing…well, I remember communicating with a fan who sent me a private message over there at FanFiction.net because they were concerned about whether or not I was quitting working on my fanfics. Meanwhile, doing original works is something I’d be doing more for Creative Writing workshop classes right now, though I am considering putting the final versions of my final projects for those classes up here online as long as they’ve been submitted and graded already. Anyway, bottom line is that I’m more focused on IRL responsibilities right now, since I can’t work on my side projects if I can’t hold my core together right.

And speaking of my core, I still have struggles with avoiding world-shouldering. I’m not alone, though, considering the strangers, the figures, the acquaintances, the companions, and the loved ones I encounter everyday. I just need to stay in my zone, learn there, work there, and have faith as I do all that service with the best of my abilities. After all, I only have one role, and it’s not being God Almighty.

With that, I ask for honest constructive feedback yet again. God Almighty keep on helping us all.

Oh, and if you’re wondering about when my next updates will happen, these monthly update posts aside, then just remember that I’ll be doing it slow and sudden…which is pretty much the usual for me right now. So yeah.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – June 2018

I tried to sing DECO*27’s “Reversible Campaign” and reblogged a post by Mrs. Juneau about Pope Francis. That’s pretty much my list of posts for the month of June in the year 2018.

What have I been doing this June? Slowing my pace and focusing on more ordinary stuff to be able to make more extraordinary stuff. Still growing better at making friends online, too. Perhaps my calling also involves a considerable focus on Internet interaction, then?

And speaking of pace, them dance classes get a special mention. My body needs to get more used to such, though. I’m feeling more motivated to freestyle as exercise during the morning now…but only if I have a space where I can do so without causing too much of a disturbance. Looks like I better open my mind more, then.

Also, a few more weeks left ’til the Midyear Term ends. Better sharpen up my focus even more, then.

Oh, and I’ve been playing the first Danganronpa on Steam a lot more lately as well, along with reading fanfics of it again. I should take my recent gaming and reading sessions with all that as a reminder to schedule better, too.

Ah, and I’ve been managing to write more lyrics. Of course, recording them as audio is another matter. So is mixing, so is video-making, so is uploading, and so is sharing. And speaking of recording, I managed to record some freestyle raps, and research and experience are having me consider trying to freestyle slower so that my brain can learn how to work with my mouth better.

And speaking of my brain, I gotta get more sleep. Will show up suddenly again, probably with some piece of writing I said I’d post before, though you can expect me having more activity on social media, activity with worth I’ve been questioning lately for the sake of my good health. And I can expect your honest constructive feedback to show up suddenly, too, so yeah~

Anyway, God Almighty keep on helping us all.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – May 2018

Although I call this ongoing and end-nearing two-week vacation (I chose to go for a summer term as well this year, see) a long vacation now, I’ve still been feeling more like taking it easy with the Tobbyworks. And hey, life outside Tobbyworks also has lots of fun, and Tobbyworks can give me as much struggles as IRL stuff does.

And speaking of IRL stuff, I got myself some above average overall grades for some of my Creative Writing classes, and the appreciation I’ve gotten for ’em from my loved ones has me feeling more like uploading them online sometime! Of course, the lessons learned from those classes are another main reason for that feeling boost!

As for my other writings as Tobby, well, they’re going slow but sure. The same can apply to my music works and whatever other creative stuff I put out here. Why I felt like reiterating that is because of a review on the FanFiction.net upload of that Fate fanfic of mine, “Crawling to the Dawn,” which made me chuckle because the reviewer thought I wouldn’t be updating it anymore due to the long wait I’ve been causing. Of course, as such a work, like a lot of my other works as Tobby so far, is pretty much a side project of mine, projects I work on while I’m not working on IRL stuff, so yeah, I don’t think it would be worth it for me to mope so much about causing such a long wait. I’ve been moping too much in my life already, and if it would mean losing some impatient followers, then alright. I’m sure them peeps can still find other ways to brighten up their days…and I’ll have to pray to God to make that more certain, too.

Speaking of music, though, I’ve managed to get some more guitar practice in again lately, although irregular and with a borrowed guitar. To be more specific, I’m learning how to play my own composition (a currently unfinished one) better. A lot of my favorite hits would have to wait until my fingers become more flexible and all that, hahaha…

And I suddenly remembered how I used to own a diary…which was filled with a lot of teenage angst. Welp, thank God very much that I’ve improved, then, hahaha! XD

Anyway, I only have poems and some music stuff uploaded for the month of May this year! Check all these out, yo:

Honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated! \(^o^ )

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – April 2018

And the only post I have for this month is my cover of Mikito-P’s “Yuudachi no Ribbon.” Welp.

But really, though, it’s been a whirlwind of worthwhile ordinary for me this past month, even with the challenges, and even with today and last night being a particularly tough time for me, as I had spun my head off thinking about my music playlist in relation to my phone’s memory, followed by recently realizing that I forgot to write up a monthly update post past all my rushy working and lazy chilling. Creative Writing classes have already entered workshop phase, I’m writing and revising my pieces while struggling to crush my pride, and exams and final papers and activities in other subjects are coming up…and I still don’t feel like calling this sort of time as “Hell Week,” even as I realize that I need to be more flexible as I strive to do my ordinary duties extraordinarily well. God Almighty and all the loved ones and even all the tough challengers He has for me, well, they get lots of thanks from me for that, alright. ^_^

And speaking of creative works I’ve been making in my Creative Writing classes, maybe I’ll even post them up online too. I’ll have to see what grades they get after I’m done with them first, though.

And before I think of doing stuff like posting up those poems with readings of mine on queue, writing more of my fanfiction, and making music videos for a bunch of my music stuff, I should get to working on the rest of my academic requirements more first. Again, they’ll show up suddenly, so yeah.

And of course, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated! \(^o^ )

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – February 2018

I think this is quite a good time to say “The struggle is real.” orz

But hey, I also think I shouldn’t take not having posts this month as a big deal. Especially with me facing my emotional and spiritual issues (e.g. oversensitivity, fame-lust, self-loathing) more along with facing them IRL responsibilities. Thank God Almighty that my loved ones have been helping me there, indeed.

Still, I managed to write up some poems and lyrics for Tobbyworks. I can’t guarantee quicker processing, especially with how I am right now, though.

Also, I managed to write and submit a short story for a contest in my university. Along with that, I’ve been learning a lot of interesting stuff about literature and creative writing in English along with Japanese stuff through the struggles of homework and discussions. Special mention goes to my Non-Realist Fiction Writing Professor who’s like a nerdy doctor dad, along with my Japanese Language Professor who’s a real hilarious blast, too~

I also have a Spotify Premium subscription now, and I’d like to share my general faves playlist to y’all~ (Note: Also includes explicit content, so yeah, you’ve been warned~)

Ah, and I’d like to plug the Steam release of the Strange Men Series as well. Linking the Bundle Details here, yo~

Anyway, I can’t promise lots of updates here right now, so yeah, upcoming releases will be more like surprises as usual. Still, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – January 2018

IRL stuff is still tough, but IRL stuff also feels more fun now. Thank God Almighty very much.

Yeah, that’s pretty much me last month, and probably will be more me this month and the next months. Not like I don’t like Tobbywork anymore, but I can only do so much of the things that I wanna do along with the things I need to do, so yeah, I need balance, indeed.

And hey, despite slower updating, I still think I can get some good stuff, or, well, stuff I’m pretty confident in, made and posted. I guess that should be expected, especially considering how my favorite artists take considerable amounts of time between releases, and I haven’t even mentioned the effort required to actually get the releases out and a bunch of other important things that are likely to send me off the rails if I try to discuss them all right here and right now!

Anyway, last month’s posts:

Now, I need to get more sleep and pull myself together better, so yeah, see you again in the den.

And hey, don’t forget the importance of honest constructive feedback!

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – December 2017 + 2017 in Review

Welp-dee-doo, 2018 is coming, and this year is certainly another year of progress for me, yo! I got into K-Pop and rap more, I started a Fate Series fanfic, I’m doing better at uni, I’ve gotten back into poetry again with more confidence, I’ve been reflecting a lot more, I’m getting more used to household chores, and there are so much more wonderful things that would probably end up as a text wall and should be a challenge for me to be more creative with such chunks of info for a year-in-review post like this!

Okay, how about some changing up for this time, then?

The Overlord Bear’s 2017 Highlights!

Music!
I have become a more solid multifandom K-Pop fan, yo! Though it seems like BTS, Seventeen, NCT, EXO, Twice, Blackpink, and Pristin have the tightest holds on me…and I even managed to make a K-Pop cover this year! And hey, I’ve been doing more lyric-writing and digital audio production (with LMMS and Audacity, still)! Vocal, rap, and instrumental arrange covers have been done, and translation covers (pretty much of Vocaloid songs) were also done! And although they’re not publicly up yet, I’ve been working on more of those along with making originals of my own, even in Filipino! I also got into GarageBand recently! And I think I still have ways to go before I manage to have professionally clean audio quality, though…and I haven’t really uploaded another original song with an MV…so I’ll make sure that MV will happen next year! Oh, and I’ve gotten more into Western music, particularly hiphop and EDM, if we’re talking about genres. twenty one pilots also became a more solid favorite of mine, and I even tried to do a cover of one of their songs! Ah, and I’ve gained interest in Gloc-9 and Inigo Pascual as well! This year has also been the year of kemu’s return, and it’s also the year when the KagePro crew’s back with a new song, “Shitsusou Word!” And thinking about covering it sometime, I end up thinking about how I currently have a lot of music productions in queue…which is both fun and challenging at the same time, hahaha…ah, and I’ve been trying to do freestyle rapping this year, which is still something I’m not very confident at, especially with longer lines…

Writing!
I remember this year as the year when I worked on a reflection series called Beauty through the Ordinary, which lasted for a few months with a mostly weekly update schedule. I also managed to get some fiction pieces out, and there’s also a Filipino piece among them, “Nasisilawan na Harang!” “Chainbreak” is also something I’m particularly pleased with among my posted short stories this year! This year is also the year when I returned with poetry and poetry readings! Illustrations are also included there, though I have less confidence in those, hahaha…Anyway, I also have fanfiction updates, which includes slow but sure Wandering Weiss updates, a RWBY one-shot fanfic, a Final Fantasy V one-shot fanfic, a KagePro fanfic, a bunch of fills in the Professor Arc Forum (which I haven’t been visiting much lately), and a Fate Series multi-chapter fanfic titled “Crawling to the Dawn!” I also joined Storyteller’s Circle, a roleplaying-centered forum, where I’m now an approved user trying to find an interesting enough RP to join! Ah, and I’m looking forward to Creative Writing workshop classes at uni this coming semester! I still gotta learn how to write academically better, though…oh, and I would like to thank Mr. Jose Dalisay Jr. for being a wonderful professor! \(^o^)

Gaming!
I think Uri’s The Hanged Man was released this year? Well, considering how I remember meeting wonderful people like Biwa, Appleco, and tordoise through the help of that this year, then I guess it was released this year. Also, I bought the PC version of the first Dangan Ronpa game from Steam during the Summer Sale, I think (Thank you very much for reminding me about that back then, Ms. Serene Harper!)…but I haven’t been playing it much lately, hahaha…I just remember playing Confess Your Love, Cthulu Saves the WorldCivilization III (CHILDHOOD MEMORIES, YOOOOOOO)and Doki Doki Literature Club on Steam this year…Oh, and I’ve gotten into Let’s Players and gaming videos on YouTube again! Markiplier and VanossGaming are the only gamer YouTubers I’m subscribed to now, though…

Reading and Watching Stories!
I haven’t been solidly watching episodic series I like lately, it seems…I’ll probably continue watching RWBY Volume 5 once all its episodes are available, and when it comes to movies, I remember watching “Patay na si Hesus” (That was a movie with some striking weirdness), “Bar Boys” (Now that’s quite a story!), and “Despicable Me 3” (but I haven’t watched the previous installments before). As for reading stories, well, I had to do a lot of that thanks very much to university classes! It was both a disorienting and an enjoyable challenge, alright…and to my surprise, I even got the highest grade I could get from a class on Poetry, of all things, this past semester! I also went through a storm as I learned more about Creative Nonfiction and the complexities it brings (My earlier sessions with it had me very emotional, alright), and the Short Story was something I had fun learning about, with special mentions going to being able to have fun with reading all the assigned stories, to holding a panel discussion about Surrealist Fiction, and to making a rap battle with a bro of a classmate for our final project! And hey, I’ll be reading even more in the semesters to come! Like, I have stacks of books in my boarding house room, and I’ve been reading stuff like G.K. Chesterton’s Father Brown stories and a bunch of recent Filipino pop fiction…and yes, I still need to read a lot more…

Other Noteworthy Personal Stuff!
I’ve gained a boosted interest in the Kapampangan language thanks to uni and my family, and they’ve been giving me tips and pointers bit by bit! I’ve also gained a boosted interest in joining Christ’s Youth in Action in my university, and I think I’ve gained a new friend in university as well! I should talk with that new friend some more, though…Ah, and I tried to do comedy videos again, and I tried to do another voice acting impersonation…Hm, perhaps stand-up comedy isn’t something I’m meant for, though…Oh, and I also made progress with romance. And prayer habits too. And I’m getting more used to household chores as well, although my dieting and exercise all need to be better incorporated into my routine. And overall, I still need to work better and better. God Almighty keep on helping us all, and speaking of God Almighty, Thank You very much as well! \(^o^)/

So yeah, what do you think of that, dear readers?

Anyway, below is a list of this month’s past posts!

And with that, I’ll be wishing you all a Happy New Year!

And of course, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated! \(^o^)