Category: Some Insomniac’s Musings

Humiliated with the Too Few Repentant

Humiliated with the Too Few Repentant

some insomniac musings by The Overlord Bear/Jem De Ocampo

When I think about Jesus’ sacrifice, I also feel like Abraham trying to convince the Father to not destroy Sodom and Gomorrah.

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Some Madman’s Marriage Proposal Idea

Some Madman’s Marriage Proposal Idea

by Jem De Ocampo

Dear Future Girlfriend,

I think I have already asked you this in so many different ways during our dates and communications, but being direct is also essential, so here: Will you marry me?

And again, I do not want your answer just yet. I still have not reminded you again about what I exactly mean by that question. What do I exactly mean by that, then?

Will you go into everyday battle against me until one of us dies? After all, I am a proud fool, and you are a proud fool, and if one person cannot decisively fix another, then I would rather have us try to outdo each other in terms of progressing in being truly oneself, whatever we think that should be. I know that we can do that even outside of marriage, but I cannot imagine fighting being so much fun without the both of us living under the same roof. And if we have to have children, then they can join in the fighting and be like how we were with our own families.

Again, this is part of how I see true love and its eternal perfection, my love. Let us assume that love is blind, and I shall also assume that love also has its enhanced remaining four senses that can still track our sacks of crap that we try to hide every single day. Let us assume that love knows no bounds, and I shall also assume that love shall go against our prideful assumptions about its bounds, no matter how popular our prideful assumptions are. Let us assume that love conquers all, and I shall also assume that love has already humbly defeated and shall defeat us without ever losing since the beginning of everything and even despite and through the pain we give it, letting us defeated fools perceive our losses how we like and never forcing us to accept our losses like we usually would against those we consider our own enemies.

And again, there are so many beautiful women in the world, and I could gather a harem of them for a battle royale, but no matter how much I believe in my delusions about such things, one woman is already more than enough for a man to handle, just like how one man is already more than enough for a woman to handle. Plus, I would rather fight one opponent at a time, and I would like to properly see our fighting through. And while marriage will not completely erase the risk of one of us boring the other, I would rather die fighting you than live escaping you once we are married.

So if you think that we cannot ever be worthy and worthier opponents to each other in such a way of life, or if you think that this sort of fighting is not meant for you, then please refuse my proposal, and I shall still continue to wish you more truly worthwhile fights, whatever they must be for you. I love you, yes, but love is not necessarily romantic and erotic.

But if you do accept my proposal, then I would be very honored to serve and fight you at such higher levels.

So again, I ask you: Will you marry me?

With love,

Jem De Ocampo

A Prayer for God’s Word to Challenge and Guide Us Fools’ Word

A Prayer for God’s Word to Challenge and Guide Us Fools’ Word

by Jem De Ocampo

Lord God, You brought light out of the darkness with just words, which we foolish humans would often think are nothing in the face of other actions. You also gave us words to remember as rules, which we foolish humans would often presume to understand and follow and even make as easily and well as You do. And of course, Your Word became flesh and dwelt among us, fulfilling Your holy promises while humbling us fools’ proud declarations.

Again, Lord God, I ask that You guide us by Your Word, which also created us human beings in Your image and likeness. Please keep us foolish humans away from misinterpreting Your silences as well, for there are conditions where silence can speak better than sound, and silence has to work together with sound. We foolish humans’ word is simply a sinful thing, but whenever it truly blesses is ultimately because of You and Your Word working on and through them and us who convey them, so please keep up Your perfect work.

In the name of the Father who orders and creates with the Word, the Son who follows and leads as the Word Incarnate, and the Holy Spirit who guides and challenges as the Advocate of the Word, I pray that us fools’ word be challenged and guided further and further, Amen.

A Prayer for Worthwhile Times

A Prayer for Worthwhile Times

by Jem De Ocampo

Lord God, please keep me away from nostalgia, for my past experiences are mostly made up of suffering, both by others’ hands and my own hands, and I would rather outdo them. Please keep me away from naivete, for my desires for the future are often foolish, often in believing in us foolish humans more than in You, and I do not want to repeat the sins I’ve committed before. And please keep me away from complacency, for the present is a speck of dust that helps form rocks of strongholds and blind all eyes it flies into, and it would only be wholly helpful to us if we would wholly allow it to be so according to Your will.

Along with those, Lord God, please help me appreciate commemoration, for the past makes me who I am, both by others’ hands, both by others’ hands and my own hands, along with the present, and I would love to make more greater things out of it all. Please help me appreciate foresight, for while the future may not be completely certain and comfortable, desires can be wise on top of being able to turn into reality. And please help me appreciate devotion, which can be done well not only through these religious rituals but also through the other parts of our whole ordinary lives, for the instant that is the present is a gift to the future and a treasure from the past, especially if we allow them to be so according to Your will.

With that, please keep on challenging and guiding us, Lord God who created time and bound us fools with it, for tradition is formed and maintained by the test of time, and while we fools can make and uphold bad tradition, foolishness shall fall upon wisdom’s feet eventually, while Your tradition shall stand for eternity. In the name of the Father who teaches the Son following with the Holy Spirit, the Son who follows the Father teaching with the Holy Spirit, and the Holy Spirit who teaches the Father and follows the Son, I pray for more and more worthwhile times for all of us, Amen.