Looking Back at the Lisa the Tearer Project

Looking Back at the Lisa the Tearer Project

some commentary on Lisa the Tearer by his manager, The Overlord Bear/Jem De Ocampo

If I had to generously describe in summary how this project turned out, I’d say that it’s a failed imitation of Drakengard.


Previous Part: “I’m So Done with Lisa the Tearer”

First Part: “Introducing Lisa the Tearer”


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Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – December 2021 + 2021 in Review

Again, it’s the season of the birth of the Bread of Life in some feeding trough in a cave in a town called “House of Bread.” In other words, Merry Christmas, my fellow filthy animals, and may we also have a Happy New Year.

And speaking of happy years, I’m sure 2021’s the happiest year I’ve had so far, funnily enough. I mean, yeah, there’s still the pandemic, but it’s another year of more saved money thanks to not having to commute such long distances to and from my day job’s office, a development that gave me the chance to have stuff like better-produced music uploads (including one that got some freaking awesome recognition) and an overconfident attempt at a VTuber project (which updated twice for the last time this month) In short, I’ve been so lucky, I further think that I’m an illegal existence. But we all love breaking the rules as long as it’s convenient to us, right?

And yeah, I think I’ve gained a bit more of an edge during 2021, or maybe I just bothered to be more accepting of the gigantic load of grit within me. Maybe it’s the latter, considering a certain Recommendation Yell of an album I once roasted like the bigoted dumbass I usually am, but hey, I might be faking this apology like any other public figure. Besides, I’m gonna need to have better humility in obscurity, or else I can’t handle being humble in popularity, so why not get me cancelled as soon as possible?

Seriously, I thrive on little achievements which I exaggerate to my senses, such as managing to cover with my recently revived stupid Japanese-English comprehension all three tracks of ||:Caesura of Despair, hololive English VSinger IRyS’s first EP: “Caesura of Despair,” “diorama,” and “HERE COMES HOPE.” That, and extreme thirst moments like my overdramatic Calli-targeted remix of Mikito-P’s “I Shared a Kiss with Hatsune Miku” and my detrimentally wilder remix of Calli’s “guh.” And unfortunately for you, more of these are coming next year…in the first half at least…hopefully.

Now, a change of topic to numb(?) some of the pain you just got: I still managed to write stories this year, but mostly fanfics with pretty ladies, and I think my favorites among those are some angsty Honkai Impact 3 yuri and a friendship fanfic featuring my favorite character in Ao-chan Can’t Study! As for my other favorite writings I wrote this year, emphasizing my bias for Ao-chan Can’t Study! is my Recommendation Yell for it. And I think I should emphasize my wack sense of marriage as well here. Fortunately for you, I don’t know if I’d be able to write more fiction, whether original or fan, next year. But don’t be too happy about that, okay? I seem to have quite the knack for nasty surprises, and I don’t like you people being stupid about people like me, so yeah, be careful~

Is there anything else I should mention? Well, there are three YouTube playlists: one for my stupid memes, one for my more overt overbearing seriousness, one for videos by more talented and skilled folks simping for me, and one for some videos led by folks who bothered to let me work with them for some reason.

And I guess that’s it for my blog posts this year. I’d now like to get back to my villainous scheming, and may God Almighty keep on helping us fools into becoming actually sensible folks.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – November 2021

Another month comes to an end with another vacation for me, but this one has more family involved. A good change of pace, especially with the extra bit of time to play games, but as I long to go back to my more usual routine now, I wonder again about how much of a workaholic I am now and whether or not I’m going down the path I should be going down, among other things. I mean, one question I’m wondering about thanks to this vacation is “How like my family and unlike my family should I be?”

And then there’s the new liturgical year. As far as I know, the whole gift-giving traditions associated with the season we call Christmas is more of a secular thing, but it’s not like I shouldn’t be a good person during the season, let alone beyond the season, and virtue is something that can and should be applied to gift-giving as well, so yeah…I’d like to say that when it comes to gift-giving, I think I’d rather ask my loved ones straight to their faces and/or be asked by them straight to my face about what they want rather than assume about that. See, as much as I wish that I could give good surprises, I’m often more focused on myself for better or worse, and I’m very meticulous about accomplishing what I consider tasks, especially for my loved ones. Again, among other things, I wonder about how much I myself should rely on initiative and how much on directive…

Still, those are things I’d like to thank God very much for. Even a good life’s gotta have challenges, after all. And speaking of more things to thank Him for, there’s me managing to make and post them new meme vids, and then there are these posts of the month:

As for the next month…well, it’s my birthday month, my birthday’s the 13th, a Monday, and while greetings are obviously welcome, there likely, if not definitely, won’t be a post in this site on that day, whether you like it or not. The weekend before that, though, well, I got some big stuff coming up for that weekend, and of course, I hope they come out well. I also hope that I won’t have a too awkward time working up the stuff I’m planning for the month and year after as well, hahaha…

Now, again, I ask for honest constructive feedback, and may God keep on helping us all!

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – October 2021

So I took a three-day leave from my day job before this weekend ’cause I’ve been running myself ragged and have been needing to realign myself, and I happened to have quite the timing, so yeah, long weekend for me, yay~ What a good part of how I’d end the month, alright~ Praise and thanks be to God very much again, and may He keep on challenging and guiding me along with my fellow fools!

And speaking of breaks, I guess I’m on break from making them vlogs and meme vids, too. Either I’ve ran out of good ideas for now, or I recently realized that I’ve been really bad about making most, if not all, of them right now. My bet’s more on the latter, actually. So yeah, I’m not linking to that stuff this time, but you’re free to dig it up and roast me with it while I try to pull myself together better there (if I can actually pull myself together any better there, that is).

As for other stuff about ending this month, well, daily Rosary’s done, and then there’s All Hallows’/Saints’ Eve today, with the Day tomorrow being Holy Day of Obligation, so yeah. Oh, and I made some loopy reflections this month: one about marriage, and one about the need to ask God for what we need.

If you’re looking for loopier stuff, then there are the Lisa posts for this month: one where he goes too edgy again, and the Halloween special where we have a starkly different Lisa. But if you’re looking for more popular VTuber stuff, maybe you’ll have more fun with my English cover of Ina’s “VIOLET,” my English cover of teniwoha’s “Empress” (which has an official version by Calli, so I guess that counts?), and my English cover of IRyS’s “diorama.” And yes, you’ll be getting more English covers from me right now.

With all that said, as usual, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – September 2021

Considering how much work I have in my day job lately and how I got a lot during Christmas season last year, combined with how I’d like to create content without getting in the way of my family’s vacationing, I guess -ber months really are my life’s peak season, at least right now. Fortunately, I’ve been having more fun here than before, despite and through all the pain I have to experience (e.g. late uploads), so yeah, praise and thanks be to God Almighty very much again.

And speaking of religious and spiritual stuff, I wrote and posted two prayers this month: one for worthwhile times, and one for God’s Word to challenge and guide us fools’ word. Like, the first one has an emphasis on how we deal with the past, the present, and the future, and the second has an emphasis on how we live with language.

As for other writings, I wrote and posted two Honkai fanfics that also happen to be about Mei Raiden: one where I go angsty and then heartwarming while imagining how she’d be right after Kiana saves the world, and one where I make a joking reference to Raiden Shogun, her Genshin counterpart. And I still haven’t gotten back to playing Honkai, hahaha~

Meanwhile, Lisa the Tearer lived for another month again, with the void background making returns. One vid’s about love teams, and the other vid is about…

…well, it’s been a year since Calliope Mori (and holoMyth and hololive English) debuted, alright. So yeah, with added effort, I decided to commemorate that with an English remix of a certain Mikito-P song. While I think the original is very wholesome, I don’t think I can say the same about mine, hahaha…

As for other embarrassing stuff, I haven’t been making and posting a lot of meme vids and vlogs lately. I hope it’s a sign of improving quality control there, too, because if I have to rage and stuff like that, I’d love to do it more healthily.

Also, I did some rebranding. Like, I changed my tagline ’cause it feels too “nice guy,” and I’d like to further shed that personality of mine off.

Oh, and October’s coming. Spooky Month, Rosary Month, All Hallows’/Saints’ Eve, yup. Music posts may not be very spooky. Lisa the Tearer posts, though? Now those should really up the spookiness, of course. And if God would like me to make and post more reflections, then so be it. May He keep on helping us all.

And of course, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – August 2021

Okay, I’mma start this off by saying that my “spiral tones” remix made it into the Top 30 of the fanwork event. Praise and thanks be to God Almighty very much again~

Now, I guess I can also say that this month has had me pushing myself to be prompter about Tobbyworks, especially with the Lisa the Tearer work being back to the usual, and speaking of Lisa, here’s him being buff, here’s him in drag, and both of them are even sleazier than before. Obviously, we’re making pitching to the next Mediums harder and harder.

As for more wonderful stuff, there are my music covers: an English remix of NCT 127’s “Simon Says,” a vocal cover of Jin’s (Shizen no Teki-P) “Yuukei Yesterday,” and an English cover of Jin’s (Shizen no Teki-P) “After Story.” And then there are my writing pieces: an essay on the probable specifics of Ayano’s Happiness Theory and a Fate fanfic starring Big Sis Illya.

Meanwhile, day job’s still going and going with the big stuff, and even with the weight piling on my mostly self-inflicted suffering, I feel pretty honored as an employee of a company being entrusted with so much, especially since I like the job I have in it. I don’t see it being my final job, though, but I feel like I’m in a good place with it at this point in my life.

As for the vlogs and the meme vids, I think I’m going even slower about it lately. Considering the sort of stuff I make there, I think that’s a good thing.

Regarding upcoming works, which I didn’t really write much about during last month’s activity update digest probably because I was feeling pretty secretive on top of forgetful there, I’d like to say that I got a fanfic on the way along with even more music and Lisa the Tearer stuff.

Oh, and before I forget, and if I remember correctly, this blog’s gonna be eight years old tomorrow. I don’t know what to say about that other than I still feel both child-like and childish, and I’d like to be more child-like. And to all you nuts who bother to do your best to put up with me and put me in my proper place, thank you very much again. And God Almighty keep on helping us all.

And again, honest constructive feedback, please.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – July 2021

So I kinda recently remembered that my bucket list is actually three bullets right now because of the Lisa the Tearer Project. Anyway, yo, really busy month be ending soon, and despite and through all the pressure that came with this month I helped make this busy, I’m glad to be able to do a lot of what I want to do. Still, I definitely can do a lot better, so yeah, praise and thanks be very much again to God Almighty, and may He keep on helping us all.

Now, more about my activities during July 2021. Lisa the Tearer finally ends his two-month music upload arc, with this month’s music featuring a vocal cover of Rico Blanco’s “Amats” and an original song titled “Restless.” I also made an English rap remix of DECO*27’s “The Vampire” and a vocal cover of Kiara Takanashi’s “SPARKS.” And then there are two fanfics: one for Ao-chan Can’t Study! and one for Nijisanji. And yeah, lot more impulse posts here, alright. Definitely a challenge, especially with my day job’s workload having grown heavier, but again, I think it’s all pretty worthwhile one way or another. Besides, everyday’s gotta be a worthwhile challenge, right?

Also, about the vlogs and meme vids, I feel like I’ve gone a bit slower about making and posting them, but I also feel like I’m improving as a public speaker, among other things. And I don’t know if you’ve noticed before, but it’s not like I won’t be posting new vids there in between the time after this sort of blog post and before the next blog post. Oh, and seriously, those vids are also supposed to be another “Crap guy who needs to improve and get help here, you’ve been warned” sign, if not a clearer one, for everyone who wants to follow me around.

And with that and another request for honest constructive feedback, I’m ending this blog post, yo~

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – June 2021

So the second half of the year is about to start, and I feel like my life is currently having a big redirection again. I mean, among other things, my bucket list’s been reduced to two bullets, and my blog post schedule seems likelier to undergo a sudden big cleanup on top of the rearrangements and additions it’s been having recently. I’d be lying if I said that all that’s not making me feel worried, but at the same time, I wouldn’t trust myself to be right about even my own feelings most of the time. At the very least, though, I can be right, and if that happens, then that’s God’s work, not mine, hahaha~ XD

Anyway, this month has them music posts as planned: my English remix of Rikka and Calli’s “spiral tones” for the fanwork event, Lisa the Tearer singing “Take Over” from Persona 5 Royal, and Lisa the Tearer singing Yorushika’s “Burglar.” And then I went above and beyond what I promised in terms of June 2021 posts with a post about perversion inspired by Medieval Otaku’s reflection on a Combatants Will Be Dispatched! anime episode, and then there’s my attempt at a parable. More music shall come next month, and in terms of writing stories, I’m gonna post a fanfiction at the very least.

Also, the memes and vlogs continue, and while the updates are less frequent, I like to think that I have a bit better quality control on those productions now. And I’m back as Shohei the Shota in a hololive fan animation by AK Enoch~

Now, I think that’s as far as I should talk here. Looking forward to more honest constructive feedback, then, and God Almighty keep on helping us all.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – May 2021

Easter’s ending and Ordinary Time’s starting. The middle of the year is coming, too. A lot of times, I wish I could do everything I want, but life reminds me that I can’t do that. I don’t think not being able to do everything I want is necessarily a bad thing, though, especially not with my propensity towards stupid little dreams and all that. Praise and thanks be to God Almighty very much again, then.

And speaking of which, this month’s posts started off as a pretty striking reminder of that too. Had to delay posting that mainly because of a collaborator having to deal with more important life stuff and me wanting the final product to be the best quality it can be. As much as I’d like to practice working with deadlines more and better, I’m kinda glad that I’m obscure enough to not be bugged so much about being late with my self-imposed deadlines right now.

And then there’s the twice-a-month posts with Lisa the Tearer, which were also juggled with yet another music upload. Then there’s that TRY where I also try to make up for being so freaking cringe to my favorite Anglophone Vocaloid producer. And speaking of which, the next month’s posts will be pretty much music uploads. I’m really excited about it, though, especially about the first upload again.

Though while the blog posting has been pushing me to be more organized and punctual about my work, my work on them memes and vlogs has also been reminding me about how I shouldn’t underestimate slowness and spontaneity. I wish I could keep on being a daily poster with those vids, but trying to put that into action has often been getting me trying to cut corners not only in those YouTube videos but also in the stuff I make dedicated posts for here on my blog.

And speaking of YouTube videos, I got another voice acting role thanks to JustinD.G. Oh, and there’s how I got a haircut recently. I didn’t expect Mom to go that far, but eh, at least it can help me deal with the summer heat better. And I think the last time I had that sort of cut was when I was a kid?

And now I’m pretty much out of important enough stuff to talk about here now. Well, aside from asking you to give me honest constructive feedback, of course.