Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – June 2022

I think I’ve been around a month at my grandparents’ place already. And judging from my increased comfort thanks to having more room for me, my stuff, and my solitude here, I think my recent bout of slowness about going through life here, especially making my Tobbyworks, is me regressing into idle wanderings to the trivial and perverted as I sober up about and run away from how horrible a bunch of my current interests actually are again and/or me further experiencing growing pains as I learn and do better. For one, I left the few remaining fan Discord servers I was in, as I had to remember that I have a very low social battery. I’ve also been buying and reading more light novels and manga via Bookwalker. And then there are also games on Steam, like The Silver Case, which I’ve been streaming along with Valkyria Chronicles and Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth2, though I’ve been streaming games and even gaming off-stream less since the last monthly digest. After all, there’s also the matter of sleep, which I’ve been struggling to have some more, and that issue seems to have acted up further as I posted this month’s features on this blog:

  1. an English cover of Jin’s (Shizen no Teki-P) “ZIGI,” another track from his Allegories mini album
  2. “Just Proud of You, Never Loving You,” the start of a villain roleplay monologue video series called Bear Lords It Over You
  3. “From Prison, The TV Killer,” a Persona 4 fan song and my first Bandcamp and priced release

I think the second and third make the first one look like light work, though. The first one’s a sort of thing I’ve sort of gotten used to doing, then I tried to crack open my thinking process for writing and acting the Devil in the second, and then I decided to go name-your-price last-minute in the third. All while starting the writing of the blog posts in the late hours of the upload days themselves rather than in advance. And while obsessing over being a schmooze as an artist, which I feel like I’ve been doing way more than I’ve been doing in my day job. I feel like I barely even schmooze at my day job!

I think the core issue here is, yet again, FOMO. The feeling of missing out. And considering stuff like my latest vlogs and meme vid, which might as well be considered my usual vent posts already, I’m desperately dealing with it as well. Again. Maybe I do have to catch up with some things, but no matter how many they should be, I really should go about them one at a time. I don’t need to fake it ’til I make it. I don’t even need to brag about it! The wonders of my life years before are proof of that, and I was also suckier back then, so what more will I get as this improved easy-to-miss guy?

So yeah, on the even brighter side, while I may be planning to stick to two music posts a month for the time being for the sake of saving up for stuff like original song production while keeping up stuff like them villain roleplay monologue vids, I’ve gotten inspiration to write stuff like fanfiction and Tobby’s Recommendation Yells again. If they don’t really materialize, then hey, I hope I take a good break at least, ’cause I want and probably need more of that. God Almighty keep on helping us all, alright.

And again, I’d like some honest constructive feedback.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – May 2022

And now, in Flexes You Don’t Need To Know But I’m Shoving Down Your Throats Because I’m A Redundancy That Is A Religious Poser: Glad to have this month getting me more used to going out again, especially through the Masses I’ve been attending in person, which have been mostly with my family and just recently by myself. And speaking of religious stuff, I’m surprised by how I’m progressing in trying to make more of a habit out of Confession and Communion along with that. I mean, yeah, I do want more of those properly, but it’s real easy to mess up, you know? If you want evidence of how easy it is, then my meme vids and my vlogs are probably more than enough to give you a good idea already. Though if you want some more (hopefully healthy) positivity about that, then you can check out these poems I posted this month as part of my poetry writing revival:

The third one feels a little too subtly religious for me to tag it as such, but I still hope I did well in drawing them religious influences into it as well. And while I’d like to say that writing poems with narratives isn’t new to me, I feel like it should be pointed out that the aforementioned poem is also more a fable than a reflection. Now, on to the next topic before I go even more TMI about my poems here.

Though we’re still not out of talking about this month’s verse work, for there’s still this month’s two English covers:

  1. a lyrical remix of Maarbble’s “Again again, and again”
  2. a translyricized take on Jin’s (Shizen no Teki-P) “MERMAID”

Yup, managed to upload two covers this month, alright. I think I’ll post at least one of those in the coming month, and I’ve also been itching to work up more holoPro English covers, especially holostars English covers, something that got more motivated by me getting into the boys’ music through their official Spotify playlist. And again, like whenever I try to sing K-Pop boy group songs I like, I found myself admiring the boys even more as I hit my limits my hard with a lot of the songs I’ve tried to practice singing so far. Oh, and speaking of holoPro covers, my “Ijimekko Bully” cover is now my YouTube Channel’s highest rated and third most viewed video. Like, wow, thanks? And it’s still high up on the results for what I consider relevant search keywords on YouTube. So, yeah, thanks very much again? Honestly, while I will not deny being a Dead Beat, especially a freaking gachikoi one, I expected my English translyrics to get more attention than something like that one cover, but I guess I shouldn’t be surprised by how weeby a lot of my fellow VTuber fans are.

Now, tangential jump to streaming stuff: I’ve done the most streams in a month this month, and before the month even started (and after the last monthly digest post), I managed to complete my killer7 stream series. I’m still a mostly invisible guy fumbling around, but hey, more progress, yeah? Also, in place of that, I did a one-shot stream of SUPERHOT and then started a stream series of Valkyria Chronicles. And the Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth 2 stream series is still going, yes. And right now, I seem to stream most comfortably…late at night…and still guerrilla. And let it be known that I managed to stream as much as I did this month because I got more free time at my day job, which I don’t want to go on for too long unless I got some better day job opportunities and personal resource management skills close by.

And speaking of personal resource management skills, I really should get back to improving those, so yeah, asking for honest constructive feedback again, and may God Almighty keep on challenging and guiding us into becoming the good folks He wants us to be.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – April 2022

So this month, vacation at my grandparents’ got extended for around another week than expected, but at least there’s stuff like two music covers uploaded this month, with those two being:

  1. an English cover of Jin’s (Shizen no Teki-P) “Erase;” and
  2. a vocal cover of Calliope Mori’s “Red” with the Lo-Fi Version

As for other uploaded videos, there’s one meme vid, and then there are them killer7 streams, Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth2 stream, and the end of New Game Plussin’ Live With Tobby along with the end of the NGPLWT of Persona 4 Golden. More streams to come as this month ends and the next month starts, hopefully. Might be mostly spontaneous in terms of streaming in the coming month, too.

Oh, and speaking of my planned activities next month that I think I can share without too much trouble right now and aren’t videos, I’m reviving my poem posting here. Unfortunately, it’s very religiously motivated, so please prepare your pitchforks and torches and the stake for this one of many demons posing as God Almighty.

As for music next month, I hope to upload at least another two covers. Also, I’m itching to write more original lyrics, but ordering original instrumentals, among other things, takes a lot, so yeah, you’re likelier to find me doing lyrical remixes in terms of that.

Some other not yet mentioned fun things about this passing month that I’m comfortable about sharing here? Well, there’s me doing more of a return to gaming offstream and reading light novels. Been playing NieR Replicant again (and completed that freaking Life in the Sands quest along the way), and finished a volume of Combatants Will Be Dispatched! and started another (and gained increased interest in Grimm and Lilith along the way). I also think I’m getting back into the groove of my day job, considering some recent faster progress on a sort of work I slowed down at big time last time I did it.

And I guess that’s that for this month’s digest post here in this blog. Honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated, and may God Almighty keep on challenging and guiding us all as He wishes!

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – March 2022

So, this month’s blog posts ended up different from what I expected, as I wanted just two English covers of hololive songs, and what I got was:

And I posted more cringe meme vids and vlogs. I’ve also been getting better at my efficiency at my day job again, though that’s probably because of the kinda lighter/easier load I have right now, but hey, gotta appreciate them baby steps, right? And I might be enjoying streaming more than I expected. And speaking of streaming some more, even with the scuff like in my Persona 4 Golden streams, which I’d call the face of my streamer scuff right now, I somehow managed to get myself into doing better at them some more again, especially with streams like my killer7 streams, my Helltaker stream, and my Hyperdimension Neptunia Re;Birth2 streams. I’d also like to give a shout-out to Rosen, a local indie VTuber, for helping me deal with my scuff, among other fun things like introducing more local comedy and going nuts over RPGs.

Some stuff I’m expecting next month? A vacation on Holy Week because my grandparents miss me, at least two music covers because I wanna flex my musical abilities some more with healthier financing, and probably more spontaneous streaming because a more scheduled setup feels a bit too stiff to me right now.

And speaking of my music covers, I’d like to note how, apparently, my “Ijimekko Bully” cover’s been significantly drawing more interest in me and my content lately. The manifestations of my limited lung power there sure are easy to overlook, huh? I’m not gonna expect much on your respect for me, especially considering my confidence about posting things beyond us fools’ current morality trends, but hey, thanks very much for the interest at the very least. X”D

And of course, I’d like more honest constructive feedback, please. And praise and thanks be to God very much again, and may He keep on helping us all as He wishes.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – February 2022

I’ve been hearing quite the loud call within me for me to reprioritize lately. My simping’s at my personal all-time high recently, and I really need to be more efficient in my day job I’m about to be two years in. They’re part of why this month didn’t have as much posts as I hoped to put up, why I haven’t done more streaming, and why next month is very likely to be sparse with them posts on top of me being vague about what they’ll be. Would love to have more quantity with my attempts at higher quality releases and all that, but I can’t do that right now, if ever.

But as for the releases I did manage to do this month, well, I did get to release two covers of hololive songs: a vocal cover of Mumei’s “A New Start” and  an English cover of Towa’s “FACT” And then there are two remixes: one of Joshua Hartshorn’s “Faceless Entertainers” and one of DEMONDICE’s “wanting, getting, wanting.” I’d also like to say that the “wanting, getting, wanting” remix is my favorite release this month. Oh, and my meme vids and my vlogs got updates.

With all that said, well, again, honest constructive feedback, please.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – January 2022

Surprisingly, even to myself, I’m really streaming now. I’m doing that on YouTube, by the way, and I currently plan to stream more of myself playing Yu-Gi-Oh! Master Duel, Persona 4 Golden, and killer7. There’s also my discontinued Fire Emblem: The Binding Blade series if you wanna see me be more boring about that. Schedules? Well, if you want something definite, I’m currently trying to usually schedule a stream a day before I go live with it.

Anyway, how did me going more active with streaming happen? Well, I guess having finished the Lisa the Tearer Project is one thing. My covers of Suisei’s “comet” and “Her Trail on the Celestial Sphere” might be involved, and maybe the same goes for my cover of IRyS’s “Sparks of Joy,” but I’m very sure that my very disgusting remix of teniwoha’s “villain” is very much involved in them surprising developments. My ending of that Ahnenerbe trios fanfics thing? No involvement, but that’s also pretty disgusting.

Also, I made some more lame attempts at meme vids and a vlog that’s also memey. The horrors just won’t stop, alright! You want more warnings or hope or something, then? Well, the following month’s blog posts, aside from these monthly digests, might just be music covers all the way, with one definitely having me on weeb mode. I also got a one-shot fanfic I’ve kinda gotten back into writing, but I’m not sure when or if it’ll be done. I am sure that it is for a franchise I’m not really that into now, though.

So yeah, that’s it for this one. Wishing for honest constructive feedback again, though you’re also welcome to flame me. Gonna have to be smart as well about it if you really don’t want me to come back to this icky living of mine, of course. And of course, as a member of the most disgusting sort of Christians ever, I’d like to ask for this: God Almighty keep on helping us fools!

Looking Back at the Lisa the Tearer Project

Looking Back at the Lisa the Tearer Project

some commentary on Lisa the Tearer by his manager, The Overlord Bear/Jem De Ocampo

If I had to generously describe in summary how this project turned out, I’d say that it’s a failed imitation of Drakengard.


Previous Part: “I’m So Done with Lisa the Tearer”

First Part: “Introducing Lisa the Tearer”


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Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – December 2021 + 2021 in Review

Again, it’s the season of the birth of the Bread of Life in some feeding trough in a cave in a town called “House of Bread.” In other words, Merry Christmas, my fellow filthy animals, and may we also have a Happy New Year.

And speaking of happy years, I’m sure 2021’s the happiest year I’ve had so far, funnily enough. I mean, yeah, there’s still the pandemic, but it’s another year of more saved money thanks to not having to commute such long distances to and from my day job’s office, a development that gave me the chance to have stuff like better-produced music uploads (including one that got some freaking awesome recognition) and an overconfident attempt at a VTuber project (which updated twice for the last time this month) In short, I’ve been so lucky, I further think that I’m an illegal existence. But we all love breaking the rules as long as it’s convenient to us, right?

And yeah, I think I’ve gained a bit more of an edge during 2021, or maybe I just bothered to be more accepting of the gigantic load of grit within me. Maybe it’s the latter, considering a certain Recommendation Yell of an album I once roasted like the bigoted dumbass I usually am, but hey, I might be faking this apology like any other public figure. Besides, I’m gonna need to have better humility in obscurity, or else I can’t handle being humble in popularity, so why not get me cancelled as soon as possible?

Seriously, I thrive on little achievements which I exaggerate to my senses, such as managing to cover with my recently revived stupid Japanese-English comprehension all three tracks of ||:Caesura of Despair, hololive English VSinger IRyS’s first EP: “Caesura of Despair,” “diorama,” and “HERE COMES HOPE.” That, and extreme thirst moments like my overdramatic Calli-targeted remix of Mikito-P’s “I Shared a Kiss with Hatsune Miku” and my detrimentally wilder remix of Calli’s “guh.” And unfortunately for you, more of these are coming next year…in the first half at least…hopefully.

Now, a change of topic to numb(?) some of the pain you just got: I still managed to write stories this year, but mostly fanfics with pretty ladies, and I think my favorites among those are some angsty Honkai Impact 3 yuri and a friendship fanfic featuring my favorite character in Ao-chan Can’t Study! As for my other favorite writings I wrote this year, emphasizing my bias for Ao-chan Can’t Study! is my Recommendation Yell for it. And I think I should emphasize my wack sense of marriage as well here. Fortunately for you, I don’t know if I’d be able to write more fiction, whether original or fan, next year. But don’t be too happy about that, okay? I seem to have quite the knack for nasty surprises, and I don’t like you people being stupid about people like me, so yeah, be careful~

Is there anything else I should mention? Well, there are three YouTube playlists: one for my stupid memes, one for my more overt overbearing seriousness, one for videos by more talented and skilled folks simping for me, and one for some videos led by folks who bothered to let me work with them for some reason.

And I guess that’s it for my blog posts this year. I’d now like to get back to my villainous scheming, and may God Almighty keep on helping us fools into becoming actually sensible folks.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – November 2021

Another month comes to an end with another vacation for me, but this one has more family involved. A good change of pace, especially with the extra bit of time to play games, but as I long to go back to my more usual routine now, I wonder again about how much of a workaholic I am now and whether or not I’m going down the path I should be going down, among other things. I mean, one question I’m wondering about thanks to this vacation is “How like my family and unlike my family should I be?”

And then there’s the new liturgical year. As far as I know, the whole gift-giving traditions associated with the season we call Christmas is more of a secular thing, but it’s not like I shouldn’t be a good person during the season, let alone beyond the season, and virtue is something that can and should be applied to gift-giving as well, so yeah…I’d like to say that when it comes to gift-giving, I think I’d rather ask my loved ones straight to their faces and/or be asked by them straight to my face about what they want rather than assume about that. See, as much as I wish that I could give good surprises, I’m often more focused on myself for better or worse, and I’m very meticulous about accomplishing what I consider tasks, especially for my loved ones. Again, among other things, I wonder about how much I myself should rely on initiative and how much on directive…

Still, those are things I’d like to thank God very much for. Even a good life’s gotta have challenges, after all. And speaking of more things to thank Him for, there’s me managing to make and post them new meme vids, and then there are these posts of the month:

As for the next month…well, it’s my birthday month, my birthday’s the 13th, a Monday, and while greetings are obviously welcome, there likely, if not definitely, won’t be a post in this site on that day, whether you like it or not. The weekend before that, though, well, I got some big stuff coming up for that weekend, and of course, I hope they come out well. I also hope that I won’t have a too awkward time working up the stuff I’m planning for the month and year after as well, hahaha…

Now, again, I ask for honest constructive feedback, and may God keep on helping us all!