Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – November 2021

Another month comes to an end with another vacation for me, but this one has more family involved. A good change of pace, especially with the extra bit of time to play games, but as I long to go back to my more usual routine now, I wonder again about how much of a workaholic I am now and whether or not I’m going down the path I should be going down, among other things. I mean, one question I’m wondering about thanks to this vacation is “How like my family and unlike my family should I be?”

And then there’s the new liturgical year. As far as I know, the whole gift-giving traditions associated with the season we call Christmas is more of a secular thing, but it’s not like I shouldn’t be a good person during the season, let alone beyond the season, and virtue is something that can and should be applied to gift-giving as well, so yeah…I’d like to say that when it comes to gift-giving, I think I’d rather ask my loved ones straight to their faces and/or be asked by them straight to my face about what they want rather than assume about that. See, as much as I wish that I could give good surprises, I’m often more focused on myself for better or worse, and I’m very meticulous about accomplishing what I consider tasks, especially for my loved ones. Again, among other things, I wonder about how much I myself should rely on initiative and how much on directive…

Still, those are things I’d like to thank God very much for. Even a good life’s gotta have challenges, after all. And speaking of more things to thank Him for, there’s me managing to make and post them new meme vids, and then there are these posts of the month:

As for the next month…well, it’s my birthday month, my birthday’s the 13th, a Monday, and while greetings are obviously welcome, there likely, if not definitely, won’t be a post in this site on that day, whether you like it or not. The weekend before that, though, well, I got some big stuff coming up for that weekend, and of course, I hope they come out well. I also hope that I won’t have a too awkward time working up the stuff I’m planning for the month and year after as well, hahaha…

Now, again, I ask for honest constructive feedback, and may God keep on helping us all!

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – October 2021

So I took a three-day leave from my day job before this weekend ’cause I’ve been running myself ragged and have been needing to realign myself, and I happened to have quite the timing, so yeah, long weekend for me, yay~ What a good part of how I’d end the month, alright~ Praise and thanks be to God very much again, and may He keep on challenging and guiding me along with my fellow fools!

And speaking of breaks, I guess I’m on break from making them vlogs and meme vids, too. Either I’ve ran out of good ideas for now, or I recently realized that I’ve been really bad about making most, if not all, of them right now. My bet’s more on the latter, actually. So yeah, I’m not linking to that stuff this time, but you’re free to dig it up and roast me with it while I try to pull myself together better there (if I can actually pull myself together any better there, that is).

As for other stuff about ending this month, well, daily Rosary’s done, and then there’s All Hallows’/Saints’ Eve today, with the Day tomorrow being Holy Day of Obligation, so yeah. Oh, and I made some loopy reflections this month: one about marriage, and one about the need to ask God for what we need.

If you’re looking for loopier stuff, then there are the Lisa posts for this month: one where he goes too edgy again, and the Halloween special where we have a starkly different Lisa. But if you’re looking for more popular VTuber stuff, maybe you’ll have more fun with my English cover of Ina’s “VIOLET,” my English cover of teniwoha’s “Empress” (which has an official version by Calli, so I guess that counts?), and my English cover of IRyS’s “diorama.” And yes, you’ll be getting more English covers from me right now.

With all that said, as usual, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated.

Some Madman’s Marriage Proposal Idea

Some Madman’s Marriage Proposal Idea

by Jem De Ocampo


Dear Future Girlfriend,

I think I have already asked you this in so many different ways during our dates and communications, but being direct is also essential, so here: Will you marry me?

And again, I do not want your answer just yet. I still have not reminded you again about what I exactly mean by that question. What do I exactly mean by that, then?

Will you go into everyday battle against me until one of us dies? After all, I am a proud fool, and you are a proud fool, and if one person cannot decisively fix another, then I would rather have us try to outdo each other in terms of progressing in being truly oneself, whatever we think that should be. I know that we can do that even outside of marriage, but I cannot imagine fighting being so much fun without the both of us living under the same roof. And if we have to have children, then they can join in the fighting and be like how we were with our own families.

Again, this is part of how I see true love and its eternal perfection, my love. Let us assume that love is blind, and I shall also assume that love also has its enhanced remaining four senses that can still track our sacks of crap that we try to hide every single day. Let us assume that love knows no bounds, and I shall also assume that love shall go against our prideful assumptions about its bounds, no matter how popular our prideful assumptions are. Let us assume that love conquers all, and I shall also assume that love has already humbly defeated and shall defeat us without ever losing since the beginning of everything and even despite and through the pain we give it, letting us defeated fools perceive our losses how we like and never forcing us to accept our losses like we usually would against those we consider our own enemies.

And again, there are so many beautiful women in the world, and I could gather a harem of them for a battle royale, but no matter how much I believe in my delusions about such things, one woman is already more than enough for a man to handle, just like how one man is already more than enough for a woman to handle. Plus, I would rather fight one opponent at a time, and I would like to properly see our fighting through. And while marriage will not completely erase the risk of one of us boring the other, I would rather die fighting you than live escaping you once we are married.

So if you think that we cannot ever be worthy and worthier opponents to each other in such a way of life, or if you think that this sort of fighting is not meant for you, then please refuse my proposal, and I shall still continue to wish you more truly worthwhile fights, whatever they must be for you. I love you, yes, but love is not necessarily romantic and erotic.

But if you do accept my proposal, then I would be very honored to serve and fight you at such higher levels.

So again, I ask you: Will you marry me?

With love,

Jem De Ocampo

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – September 2021

Considering how much work I have in my day job lately and how I got a lot during Christmas season last year, combined with how I’d like to create content without getting in the way of my family’s vacationing, I guess -ber months really are my life’s peak season, at least right now. Fortunately, I’ve been having more fun here than before, despite and through all the pain I have to experience (e.g. late uploads), so yeah, praise and thanks be to God Almighty very much again.

And speaking of religious and spiritual stuff, I wrote and posted two prayers this month: one for worthwhile times, and one for God’s Word to challenge and guide us fools’ word. Like, the first one has an emphasis on how we deal with the past, the present, and the future, and the second has an emphasis on how we live with language.

As for other writings, I wrote and posted two Honkai fanfics that also happen to be about Mei Raiden: one where I go angsty and then heartwarming while imagining how she’d be right after Kiana saves the world, and one where I make a joking reference to Raiden Shogun, her Genshin counterpart. And I still haven’t gotten back to playing Honkai, hahaha~

Meanwhile, Lisa the Tearer lived for another month again, with the void background making returns. One vid’s about love teams, and the other vid is about…

…well, it’s been a year since Calliope Mori (and holoMyth and hololive English) debuted, alright. So yeah, with added effort, I decided to commemorate that with an English remix of a certain Mikito-P song. While I think the original is very wholesome, I don’t think I can say the same about mine, hahaha…

As for other embarrassing stuff, I haven’t been making and posting a lot of meme vids and vlogs lately. I hope it’s a sign of improving quality control there, too, because if I have to rage and stuff like that, I’d love to do it more healthily.

Also, I did some rebranding. Like, I changed my tagline ’cause it feels too “nice guy,” and I’d like to further shed that personality of mine off.

Oh, and October’s coming. Spooky Month, Rosary Month, All Hallows’/Saints’ Eve, yup. Music posts may not be very spooky. Lisa the Tearer posts, though? Now those should really up the spookiness, of course. And if God would like me to make and post more reflections, then so be it. May He keep on helping us all.

And of course, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated.

A Prayer for God’s Word to Challenge and Guide Us Fools’ Word

A Prayer for God’s Word to Challenge and Guide Us Fools’ Word

by Jem De Ocampo


Lord God, You brought light out of the darkness with just words, which we foolish humans would often think are nothing in the face of other actions. You also gave us words to remember as rules, which we foolish humans would often presume to understand and follow and even make as easily and well as You do. And of course, Your Word became flesh and dwelt among us, fulfilling Your holy promises while humbling us fools’ proud declarations.

Again, Lord God, I ask that You guide us by Your Word, which also created us human beings in Your image and likeness. Please keep us foolish humans away from misinterpreting Your silences as well, for there are conditions where silence can speak better than sound, and silence has to work together with sound. We foolish humans’ word is simply a sinful thing, but whenever it truly blesses is ultimately because of You and Your Word working on and through them and us who convey them, so please keep up Your perfect work.

In the name of the Father who orders and creates with the Word, the Son who follows and leads as the Word Incarnate, and the Holy Spirit who guides and challenges as the Advocate of the Word, I pray that us fools’ word be challenged and guided further and further, Amen.

A Prayer for Worthwhile Times

A Prayer for Worthwhile Times

by Jem De Ocampo


Lord God, please keep me away from nostalgia, for my past experiences are mostly made up of suffering, both by others’ hands and my own hands, and I would rather outdo them. Please keep me away from naivete, for my desires for the future are often foolish, often in believing in us foolish humans more than in You, and I do not want to repeat the sins I’ve committed before. And please keep me away from complacency, for the present is a speck of dust that helps form rocks of strongholds and blind all eyes it flies into, and it would only be wholly helpful to us if we would wholly allow it to be so according to Your will.

Along with those, Lord God, please help me appreciate commemoration, for the past makes me who I am, both by others’ hands, both by others’ hands and my own hands, along with the present, and I would love to make more greater things out of it all. Please help me appreciate foresight, for while the future may not be completely certain and comfortable, desires can be wise on top of being able to turn into reality. And please help me appreciate devotion, which can be done well not only through these religious rituals but also through the other parts of our whole ordinary lives, for the instant that is the present is a gift to the future and a treasure from the past, especially if we allow them to be so according to Your will.

With that, please keep on challenging and guiding us, Lord God who created time and bound us fools with it, for tradition is formed and maintained by the test of time, and while we fools can make and uphold bad tradition, foolishness shall fall upon wisdom’s feet eventually, while Your tradition shall stand for eternity. In the name of the Father who teaches the Son following with the Holy Spirit, the Son who follows the Father teaching with the Holy Spirit, and the Holy Spirit who teaches the Father and follows the Son, I pray for more and more worthwhile times for all of us, Amen.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – August 2021

Okay, I’mma start this off by saying that my “spiral tones” remix made it into the Top 30 of the fanwork event. Praise and thanks be to God Almighty very much again~

Now, I guess I can also say that this month has had me pushing myself to be prompter about Tobbyworks, especially with the Lisa the Tearer work being back to the usual, and speaking of Lisa, here’s him being buff, here’s him in drag, and both of them are even sleazier than before. Obviously, we’re making pitching to the next Mediums harder and harder.

As for more wonderful stuff, there are my music covers: an English remix of NCT 127’s “Simon Says,” a vocal cover of Jin’s (Shizen no Teki-P) “Yuukei Yesterday,” and an English cover of Jin’s (Shizen no Teki-P) “After Story.” And then there are my writing pieces: an essay on the probable specifics of Ayano’s Happiness Theory and a Fate fanfic starring Big Sis Illya.

Meanwhile, day job’s still going and going with the big stuff, and even with the weight piling on my mostly self-inflicted suffering, I feel pretty honored as an employee of a company being entrusted with so much, especially since I like the job I have in it. I don’t see it being my final job, though, but I feel like I’m in a good place with it at this point in my life.

As for the vlogs and the meme vids, I think I’m going even slower about it lately. Considering the sort of stuff I make there, I think that’s a good thing.

Regarding upcoming works, which I didn’t really write much about during last month’s activity update digest probably because I was feeling pretty secretive on top of forgetful there, I’d like to say that I got a fanfic on the way along with even more music and Lisa the Tearer stuff.

Oh, and before I forget, and if I remember correctly, this blog’s gonna be eight years old tomorrow. I don’t know what to say about that other than I still feel both child-like and childish, and I’d like to be more child-like. And to all you nuts who bother to do your best to put up with me and put me in my proper place, thank you very much again. And God Almighty keep on helping us all.

And again, honest constructive feedback, please.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – July 2021

So I kinda recently remembered that my bucket list is actually three bullets right now because of the Lisa the Tearer Project. Anyway, yo, really busy month be ending soon, and despite and through all the pressure that came with this month I helped make this busy, I’m glad to be able to do a lot of what I want to do. Still, I definitely can do a lot better, so yeah, praise and thanks be very much again to God Almighty, and may He keep on helping us all.

Now, more about my activities during July 2021. Lisa the Tearer finally ends his two-month music upload arc, with this month’s music featuring a vocal cover of Rico Blanco’s “Amats” and an original song titled “Restless.” I also made an English rap remix of DECO*27’s “The Vampire” and a vocal cover of Kiara Takanashi’s “SPARKS.” And then there are two fanfics: one for Ao-chan Can’t Study! and one for Nijisanji. And yeah, lot more impulse posts here, alright. Definitely a challenge, especially with my day job’s workload having grown heavier, but again, I think it’s all pretty worthwhile one way or another. Besides, everyday’s gotta be a worthwhile challenge, right?

Also, about the vlogs and meme vids, I feel like I’ve gone a bit slower about making and posting them, but I also feel like I’m improving as a public speaker, among other things. And I don’t know if you’ve noticed before, but it’s not like I won’t be posting new vids there in between the time after this sort of blog post and before the next blog post. Oh, and seriously, those vids are also supposed to be another “Crap guy who needs to improve and get help here, you’ve been warned” sign, if not a clearer one, for everyone who wants to follow me around.

And with that and another request for honest constructive feedback, I’m ending this blog post, yo~