Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – June 2018

I tried to sing DECO*27’s “Reversible Campaign” and reblogged a post by Mrs. Juneau about Pope Francis. That’s pretty much my list of posts for the month of June in the year 2018.

What have I been doing this June? Slowing my pace and focusing on more ordinary stuff to be able to make more extraordinary stuff. Still growing better at making friends online, too. Perhaps my calling also involves a considerable focus on Internet interaction, then?

And speaking of pace, them dance classes get a special mention. My body needs to get more used to such, though. I’m feeling more motivated to freestyle as exercise during the morning now…but only if I have a space where I can do so without causing too much of a disturbance. Looks like I better open my mind more, then.

Also, a few more weeks left ’til the Midyear Term ends. Better sharpen up my focus even more, then.

Oh, and I’ve been playing the first Danganronpa on Steam a lot more lately as well, along with reading fanfics of it again. I should take my recent gaming and reading sessions with all that as a reminder to schedule better, too.

Ah, and I’ve been managing to write more lyrics. Of course, recording them as audio is another matter. So is mixing, so is video-making, so is uploading, and so is sharing. And speaking of recording, I managed to record some freestyle raps, and research and experience are having me consider trying to freestyle slower so that my brain can learn how to work with my mouth better.

And speaking of my brain, I gotta get more sleep. Will show up suddenly again, probably with some piece of writing I said I’d post before, though you can expect me having more activity on social media, activity with worth I’ve been questioning lately for the sake of my good health. And I can expect your honest constructive feedback to show up suddenly, too, so yeah~

Anyway, God Almighty keep on helping us all.

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Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – May 2018

Although I call this ongoing and end-nearing two-week vacation (I chose to go for a summer term as well this year, see) a long vacation now, I’ve still been feeling more like taking it easy with the Tobbyworks. And hey, life outside Tobbyworks also has lots of fun, and Tobbyworks can give me as much struggles as IRL stuff does.

And speaking of IRL stuff, I got myself some above average overall grades for some of my Creative Writing classes, and the appreciation I’ve gotten for ’em from my loved ones has me feeling more like uploading them online sometime! Of course, the lessons learned from those classes are another main reason for that feeling boost!

As for my other writings as Tobby, well, they’re going slow but sure. The same can apply to my music works and whatever other creative stuff I put out here. Why I felt like reiterating that is because of a review on the FanFiction.net upload of that Fate fanfic of mine, “Crawling to the Dawn,” which made me chuckle because the reviewer thought I wouldn’t be updating it anymore due to the long wait I’ve been causing. Of course, as such a work, like a lot of my other works as Tobby so far, is pretty much a side project of mine, projects I work on while I’m not working on IRL stuff, so yeah, I don’t think it would be worth it for me to mope so much about causing such a long wait. I’ve been moping too much in my life already, and if it would mean losing some impatient followers, then alright. I’m sure them peeps can still find other ways to brighten up their days…and I’ll have to pray to God to make that more certain, too.

Speaking of music, though, I’ve managed to get some more guitar practice in again lately, although irregular and with a borrowed guitar. To be more specific, I’m learning how to play my own composition (a currently unfinished one) better. A lot of my favorite hits would have to wait until my fingers become more flexible and all that, hahaha…

And I suddenly remembered how I used to own a diary…which was filled with a lot of teenage angst. Welp, thank God very much that I’ve improved, then, hahaha! XD

Anyway, I only have poems and some music stuff uploaded for the month of May this year! Check all these out, yo:

Honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated! \(^o^ )

Suck It, Morning Rush

Today’s breakfast is Hotchix,
With spice and rice, so oiled and crisp
But there’s no lovely health, just a quick fix
Running on gut instincts
That bottled water will just swish.

My shoelaces unravel with telekinesis
That makes sense because of my raging
Which I threw out like garbage
But I took hold of that purple force
And said “Suck it, morning rush.”

I won’t skip away from the building
Even with no fire exit waiting
Because I still have more to learn
Like the many ways I can say “I love you”
Even while we’re stuck in a corner.

Even if this bracelet on my right wrist
Holds a bunch of roses always white,
With a crown of thorns, it’s still alike,
So I should bear it with humble breaths
So flow on, apologies and thanks.

Now let’s go take the next morning rush
And let it go suck all of our sun
While we beat it up with our loaded guts
‘Til it blows to send the light back up
So yeah, I’m back, my love.

SIM PLAY

God the Father already knew how stubborn we were
Yet He sent His Son to live and die on dirty Earth.

I hear His simple call
To follow Him around
Yet when he BRRRRRINGS! my cross,
I’m hating leaning down.

I can’t change my number
‘Cause I don’t get His wares
Of Divine Tech Support
Which wants me fixed in here.

I do as the Pharisees do, calling myself good
But God, don’t let me hang like Judas Iscariot would.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – April 2018

And the only post I have for this month is my cover of Mikito-P’s “Yuudachi no Ribbon.” Welp.

But really, though, it’s been a whirlwind of worthwhile ordinary for me this past month, even with the challenges, and even with today and last night being a particularly tough time for me, as I had spun my head off thinking about my music playlist in relation to my phone’s memory, followed by recently realizing that I forgot to write up a monthly update post past all my rushy working and lazy chilling. Creative Writing classes have already entered workshop phase, I’m writing and revising my pieces while struggling to crush my pride, and exams and final papers and activities in other subjects are coming up…and I still don’t feel like calling this sort of time as “Hell Week,” even as I realize that I need to be more flexible as I strive to do my ordinary duties extraordinarily well. God Almighty and all the loved ones and even all the tough challengers He has for me, well, they get lots of thanks from me for that, alright. ^_^

And speaking of creative works I’ve been making in my Creative Writing classes, maybe I’ll even post them up online too. I’ll have to see what grades they get after I’m done with them first, though.

And before I think of doing stuff like posting up those poems with readings of mine on queue, writing more of my fanfiction, and making music videos for a bunch of my music stuff, I should get to working on the rest of my academic requirements more first. Again, they’ll show up suddenly, so yeah.

And of course, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated! \(^o^ )

Cynical Romance – or Why Love Sucks

Not as cynical as it seems, alright~ 😀

From A Clogged Mind

You know you’ve said it. More times than you care to admit. Even in marriage. Hey, we all go through it. No one is immune. Those who say they haven’t are lying, delusional or scared to face it.

But that’s ok. The trick is to get through to the other side. Cynicism doesn’t have to cloud the happiness that true love gives in return.

Here’s a poem to ponder when love sucks and you just don’t want to believe it.

Cynical Romance

Moira said to me

And in no uncertain terms

That she loved me

I was taken aback

I never had love

I mean

Love was glitter

Unicorns and BS

Yeah it’s a cynic rant

That’s just how I feel

Telling her I felt

The same way was

A sucker move

She’d leave anyway

Like most do

It’s in their nature

For people to tell you

what they want

You…

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Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – February 2018

I think this is quite a good time to say “The struggle is real.” orz

But hey, I also think I shouldn’t take not having posts this month as a big deal. Especially with me facing my emotional and spiritual issues (e.g. oversensitivity, fame-lust, self-loathing) more along with facing them IRL responsibilities. Thank God Almighty that my loved ones have been helping me there, indeed.

Still, I managed to write up some poems and lyrics for Tobbyworks. I can’t guarantee quicker processing, especially with how I am right now, though.

Also, I managed to write and submit a short story for a contest in my university. Along with that, I’ve been learning a lot of interesting stuff about literature and creative writing in English along with Japanese stuff through the struggles of homework and discussions. Special mention goes to my Non-Realist Fiction Writing Professor who’s like a nerdy doctor dad, along with my Japanese Language Professor who’s a real hilarious blast, too~

I also have a Spotify Premium subscription now, and I’d like to share my general faves playlist to y’all~ (Note: Also includes explicit content, so yeah, you’ve been warned~)

Ah, and I’d like to plug the Steam release of the Strange Men Series as well. Linking the Bundle Details here, yo~

Anyway, I can’t promise lots of updates here right now, so yeah, upcoming releases will be more like surprises as usual. Still, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – January 2018

IRL stuff is still tough, but IRL stuff also feels more fun now. Thank God Almighty very much.

Yeah, that’s pretty much me last month, and probably will be more me this month and the next months. Not like I don’t like Tobbywork anymore, but I can only do so much of the things that I wanna do along with the things I need to do, so yeah, I need balance, indeed.

And hey, despite slower updating, I still think I can get some good stuff, or, well, stuff I’m pretty confident in, made and posted. I guess that should be expected, especially considering how my favorite artists take considerable amounts of time between releases, and I haven’t even mentioned the effort required to actually get the releases out and a bunch of other important things that are likely to send me off the rails if I try to discuss them all right here and right now!

Anyway, last month’s posts:

Now, I need to get more sleep and pull myself together better, so yeah, see you again in the den.

And hey, don’t forget the importance of honest constructive feedback!