Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – August 2017

I think I should define “month-end” as “the start of the next month” as well. That should make working on this have a more flexible schedule, probably.

Anyway, yo. August has been the month of my return to school, and freaking nuts, I’ve been through rough start. Luckily, I have moral support, and I’m less a guy who sleeps alone with his anxiety now. And with that, homework’s more manageable as well!

Like, really, homework’s like a breeze with enough moral support, especially while I process the lecture-and-discussion parts, which I find meatier and more challenging. And speaking of challenging meat, processing the lectures and discussions is like trying to eat the meat out of the holes and crevices of small yet curving bones. I have to get my hands dirty to work on them more quickly, and I gotta make sure that my dirtied hands won’t cause me sickness after mealtime…but hey, it’s not like I never encountered any fun learning during those lectures and discussions (for example, having a professor with amazing storytelling skills gets the lessons into my head more easily), so don’t worry so much.

Also, I’m getting used to living by myself some more. I guess I have to keep up the regular seeking for moral support if I wanna do that better, too.

As for online activities, well, let’s get the list of August posts over first:

So yeah, I made a return to poetry this month, and this time, I have readings and illustrations with them as well. I guess the poetry class I have this semester is a major factor there, too. Also, I have more ready for uploading, and I’m just waiting for a good enough time to upload them.

As for the Beauty through the Ordinary posts, I think I need to improve my daily routine to improve the quality of those posts. I’ve been worrying about their quality lately, see.

Regarding fanfiction, I’ve been doing more work on a certain thread in the Professor Arc Forum than I’ve been working on Wandering Weiss. Along with that, I have other fanfic pieces that are probably upload-worthy already, and one of them is the start of another multi-chapter. Hm, them writers asking for feedback make a lot more sense again, alright…

As for reading posts made by other bloggers I follow, well, I guess I haven’t been doing that much lately. Maybe I should do that some more to help in keeping my content fresh and sharp, especially since I also run a blog…

And as for other future uploads, I have a bunch of music tracks (mostly covers) that’ll need to have their respective videos worked on, and there’s also a collaboration track coming up next month, though I won’t be the one making and uploading the music video. Oh, and there’s that long-awaited MV production for that original track of mine…but a firm enough schedule for that is still being worked on.

By the way, I’ve set up an account at Casting Call Club. Along with that is my voice acting activity getting some life again. And maybe I should work on that VOISes of Fiction entry sometime soon…kinda…

As for other creative content I’ve been consuming lately, well, there’s more K-Pop, and there’s also more locally made and published fiction. Maybe I should add some more variety to that, too…

So yeah, with that, I’m gonna need to get a lot of rest soon. And as usual, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated.

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Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – July 2017

My YouTube Channel now has 150 subscribers, but to be honest, the numbers I have there and in my other zones in the Net, although still holding importance, don’t feel like something I should make a very big deal out of. I’d rather think about how my stuff is being received by my audience, see.

Anyway, August is coming, and along with that is the beginning of my university’s first semester of the new academic year. I’m honestly worried about having to deal with the surging currents of the dominant views there again, especially during discussion periods, but this time, I feel less worried than I was during past semesters, for I know that I have some strong links I can hold on to, giving me more confidence in forging and strengthening healthy bonds with other people.

And speaking of which, this month has been quite a worthwhile spiritual journey for me as well. I guess the rest of my vacation has that sort of feel, too, considering how I’ve been taking more time for prayer and daily Bible readings, particularly during the morning. I still have things I’m conflicted about, though, most of them being things which involve the arts (e.g. my choices for my music playlist, how I should read the books I read, and what sort of creative projects I should work on), but I still have will to improve.

Now, more about my activities as The Overlord Bear, with a list of posts for this ending month of July:

I also reblogged a bunch of posts from other blogs and bloggers this month:

As for my future activities as Tobby, well, uploads will likely be less in the remaining five months of this year, as I will have a lot of school stuff to deal with again. I think it can be a good change of pace too, as I think I can put the course major theory stuff I’ll be learning this semester into practice through my writing works that I’ll post online as well. Along with that, I think I’ll be having less insecurities thinking about how I’ll make worthwhile stuff to post online and such if I treat my Tobby activities as extracurricular activities. That, and I’ll be able to have a better social life outside the Net that way…and no, I don’t believe in healthy academic life and healthy social life being mutually exclusive.

Still, it’s not like I’ll never drop by the electronic blue ocean ever again. I still feel a calling to it, though it’s different from what my younger and more foolish self thought he heard.

But still, I have a lot to learn, considering stuff like me slacking off with stupid jokes and me cringing real hard at important corrections, so yeah, to those who are willing to do so: Please pray for me, okay?

So yeah, updates will be sudden, as usual…well, unless it’s the Beauty through the Ordinary series and these monthly updates, which have more regularity than, say, my fiction posts and my music uploads. There’s also the likelihood of me and my friends actually working on that live-action music video for that one original song of mine sometime during August, and there’s also the likelihood of me posting some sung translyrics and a recorded vocal arrangement.

With that, I ask for more honest constructive feedback, dear nutshellcrackers! \(^o^)

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – June 2017

I may be on vacation right now, but that doesn’t mean that nothing significant has been happening in my life.

And seriously, this month has been a lot for me. Maybe not in terms of major content posted, but in terms of my growth as a person in general. For example, I’ve been doing more exercise, prayer, and chores regularly. I’ve been having some more bonding time via Facebook Messenger with a godmother of mine who currently lives in the US with her husband and kids. I’ve been thinking about my school life, my social life, my love life, and my future more seriously, a sign of that being my increased willingness and confidence in going for renting a bedspace near my university again, and there’s also me, well…not hanging around certain Net spots as much as I did before. And hey, I’ve been reading more Filipino fiction and making more contact with contemporary Filipino writers. I’m also sharpening my Japanese more by having a somewhat more regular communication routine with a native Japanese friend!

Sure, it can be tiring, especially when piled up with my lazy and unhealthy habits, but knowing that I can improve keeps on pushing me to improve more and more, you know!

So yeah, I thank God very much yet again. He’s quite glorious, if you ask me. 🙂

Still, I have a long way to go. Another sign of that is my internal clash in terms of what content to post in the future. For example, there’s this one English rap arrange of a Japanese Vocaloid song, something which I hesitate to develop further as a cover because of the creepy source material and the less creepy but still creepy lyrics I wrote. I consulted a friend once about it, and he’s up for supporting my efforts if I ever decide to turn it into a full-blown cover, but I still have my doubts. There’s also my procrastination on doing my creative works and also more important things, particularly by going through trashy material and spending too much time on video games, all under the pretense of relaxing my mind. I also still have difficulty with regularly sleeping on time, among other things.

Hm, perhaps more will with prayer would be good, then. I have will, yeah, but it would be a waste if I don’t use it to go to the right direction. So yeah, that’s a look into how my growth as a person has been going this month. Now, it’s time for a lineup of the stuff I posted during this month:

So yeah, that’s this month’s lineup of major posts. Other posted things to note are those prompted fills for the Professor Arc Forum’s Writer Games thread, though honestly, I don’t think I’ll be hanging as much there anymore, so, to all the peeps there who look up to me: I’m sorry, but I’d like to take life more seriously now. You’re still welcome to try giving me your honest constructive feedback on my works, if you’d like. I’m especially talking to you, Inthretis…so yeah, I hope you’re also keeping tabs on my posts here. Though I guess you being informed by me before reading this would be more likely, hahaha…

As for info on what I’ll be posting in the future, what’s very likely to be posted are more prompted short stories, one or two song covers (an English one being likely as well), and a fanfiction chapter or two. As for what I’ve been working on lately, I have a funny set of Japanese-Vocaloid-song-based English translyrics which had passed translation check recently, a bunch of K-Pop-song-based translyrics which are currently stored away in my comp and cloud storage, an attempt at a more hiphop sort of original song (probably) with a completed composition draft and an incomplete arrangement draft, the next chapter of Wandering Weiss, a Fate series fanfiction which mainly involves a certain treacherous Knight of the Round Table, and a revised version of an arrange cover of a certain Vocaloid song that’s also by kemu. Oh, and there’s that creepy English rap arrange I mentioned before. That thing’s a very very gray area to me, indeed.

Anyway, I’d like to remind you again, dear nutshellcrackers: Honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated!

So yeah, see you again in the den! \(^o^)

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – May 2017

Right on time, yo! Well, kinda barely, I guess, considering how late it is right now here.

Anyway, I still have confidence in saying that this month has been a month of good progress! I managed to pass all of the subjects I took during the recently ended university semester, and I’ve been managing to post some more content here as well!

Of course, I still need to be of help in the house and all. Along with learning the ways of being more independent, I gotta be a good son and brother as well, you know! And hey, I gotta work out more too, which I’ve been trying to do lately. I’ve really gained a lot of weight in the recently past months, see. And I gotta get more rest and care for hygiene more. Like, I pretty much need to care for my health more, and that includes my mental health as well. And speaking of which, I’ve been thinking real hard about my social life real hard lately, particularly in terms of people I usually hang around with and how I hang around with them…God Almighty help me there….

Also, books have gotten my interest a lot more lately. Special mention goes to them Wattpad-popular stuff and them religious books. They’ve been getting me thinking about my future in worthwhile ways, you know.

Anyway, on to the stuff I posted during this month:

  1. a cover of twenty one pilots’s “Ride”
  2. six instrumental tracks I produced some time ago
  3. a cover of Mikito-P’s “Yonjuunana” with Bikkuri’s acoustic arrange
  4. “Nasisilawan na Harang,” a short story I wrote in Filipino
  5. the tenth chapter of Wandering Weiss

Also of note is a reblog I did of a post by Medieval Otaku, a dear friend of mine. That, and there’s the release of Uri’s The Hanged Man, the final main-line game in her Strange Men Series. Unlike The Boogie Man, I’m not a voice actor in it, but it’s still a game I’d recommend, not only because of my involvement in the production of the series, but also because of the content. I’ve thought of making a Recommendation Yell for it, but I’ve lost interest in doing such posts, as I’ve been finding more fun in having art experienced with 10% advertising and 90% discovery, if you get what I mean.

So yeah, that’s pretty much it for this post. Gotta sleep soon, too, so yeah, don’t forget my usual reminder about honest constructive feedback, which is highly encouraged and will be highly appreicated.

And with that, see you again in the den, nutshellcrackers!

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – April 2017

A month with no blog posts? Talk about angsting, Tobby~

So yeah, hi. It’s me, The Overlord Bear, and I’m here with this late monthly update post.

The previous month’s been one very tough month for me, with a special mention going to my parents, particularly my mother, for snapping me out of that angsting. Also, more and more, I’m realizing how much make other people look worse in my own perception. I’d try to blame a certain bunch of people I’ve been hanging around with a lot during the recently past days, but that would be hypocritical. Along with that is working harder towards true improvement, ’cause rubbing my weaknesses into my own face really doesn’t help.

And right now, I’m trying to save what I can from this university semester I’m having trouble with. I almost decided to stop going to school, but I was reminded about who I really want to be, so yeah, I still am and still will be going to uni classes with the same course I enrolled for with the best of my abilities. Good thing my parents, among other people, are around to help me out. Thank God very much, indeed.

By the way, I feel like “We Don’t Believe What’s on TV” is appropriate at this point.

Anyway, I got good news, and it’s that I’ve been making progress with two original short stories I’ve been writing. One’s in Filipino, and another’s in English. Both of them have gone through beta reader review, which I’ll likely be checking out after I feel settled regarding this current uni semester. Also, I’ve managed to get an illustrator to start working on a cover drawing for the Filipino short story, which I couldn’t have done without my dear sister’s help. And as for when those stories will finally be uploaded to the viewing public, well, that’ll be one mostly (at least) sudden thing, okay?

Oh, and fanfiction…Although I’ve been having reduced frequency of presence in the Professor Arc Forum, I’ve been writing stuff in The Writer Games: Forum Edition thread there. Wandering Weiss is somewhat at a standstill in terms of production right now, though I’ve been having ideas for its future chapters. I also managed to progress in the writing of another Your Name. fanfic, and yes, I still feel surprise at the reception of my first one, although it’s not like I don’t enjoy the good reception I’ve been receiving.

And suddenly, I remembered those crappy Touhou fanfics of mine, which I had already deleted from the great blue electronic ocean. Oh well, what matters is that I’m an improved writer now, and I really need to keep on improving, yo~

Also, somebody got inspired by a prompt of mine in The Writer Games: Forum Edition, leading to the creation of a RWBY fanfic in which Pyrrha Nikos enrolls into Beacon Academy while going by a fake identity. So far, it’s a pretty impressive take. And yes, I’ll be writing my own take on that premise sometime.

As for music stuff, I’ll still be making song covers. There will be at least one (with that condition fulfilled already ’cause “Ride” cover, yo~) song cover uploaded this month, too. There might be at least one collab cover which will be uploaded, too. And regarding that one original…well, I’ll need to contact my friend again about it. Haven’t been discussing that with him for a long while, see. Anyway, you’ll be getting updates, dear readers.

So yeah…I guess that’s pretty much what I got to say for this. Well, I’d also like to ask for your prayers, and I’d also like to ask for your honest constructive feedback, dear readers.

And with that…See you again in the den, nutshellcrackers. 🙂

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – March 2017

Hello, peeps. The Overlord Bear’s back with a monthly update post.

So yeah, I haven’t posted much in this blog during March 2017. I guess you can say that it’s been a tough month for me. I’d like to talk about it, yeah, but the deeper details are stuff that I’d like to talk about only with people I trust enough. I don’t really like ranting about my problems in public, too, even though that act has been tempting to me a bunch of times. Being in the Net has gotten me remembering about how toxic I can get, you know. And even though I find it tough to talk about my problems with people like my dear parents, I find them easier to talk with compared to most people.

Anyway, time to talk about my activities as Tobby this month, although they’re not much. Regarding posted stuff, I have my cover of Crusher-P’s “ECHO,” which doesn’t have much in terms of talk in the blog post there, considering that I’ve been having trouble during that point in time. Around a week later is my reblog of a post by Fr. Mark A. Pilon, a post that got me thinking about how I’ve been living my life lately.

As for other activities as Tobby, I’ve managed to complete the audio production of an original song of mine. I’ve managed to contact some friends who are up for helping me out in making a music video for it, though the planning isn’t that solid yet, especially considering our schedules. Still, I think that we’ll be able to work on it sometime. Also, writing for Wandering Weiss is slowly but surely progressing.

And speaking of future stuff, I’m likely to upload covers in the coming month. An English song cover upload is very likely, too.

Now, regarding some real life stuff that are probably okay for me to talk about, well, I guess we can say that I need some moral support in my life. There’s a lot of tough things out there that I’ll certainly encounter, and I don’t want to corrupt my soul while I try to overcome them. I’m currently in confusion about how to deal with my issues right now, and I’m certain that I’ve messed up a bunch of time recently, but I’m sure that I can find a proper way to deal with my problems. I’ve survived and improved before, so why can’t I survive and improve some more?

Heh, I think that vagueness that my mother pointed out in me once is showing up again. I guess you can say that it’s my anxiety acting up, and I want to be cared for too, but it would be foolish if I don’t put some effort in helping myself, no? Some of the limits that I think I have are probably lies that I’ve been telling myself, too. That’s something that I’ve realized after some talks with some dear people in my life, yo.

But hey, I’m probably sending you into a spiral of confusion at this point. Don’t worry too much, though. I’ll certainly find a way to properly deal with my problems, and I ask for God Almighty to help me with that. I’ve been helped by Him before, so yeah, my faith lives and will live on. 🙂

And with that, see you again in the den, peeps. And again, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated.

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – February 2017

Indeed, I’m late with this sort of post again. My mind’s been in a tangle lately, one which I threw myself in pretty much. And hey, I thank God very much for good priests and good parents in my life, for I’d be in a worse tangle right now without them.

Anyway, along with my second late monthly update post, this blog didn’t have much activity during the past month. Studies have been taking a considerable amount of my time, and although it can be difficult, it’s still something which I consider important. That, and I haven’t been putting a lot of effort into managing my time better. It’s irritating to know that I repeated such mistakes, but it’s better to admit it and calmly work better than panic and make the problem worse. And yes, I feel some sadness at not spending a lot of time on things like working on stories and such and hanging out with online friends, but I have to make important sacrifices in order to be a truly better person. Perhaps this month and maybe even further months would have reduced Tobby activity, considering the likely progression of my education, but on the bright side, I think I’ll be able to learn how to manage my time and energy better that way.

Now, about the stuff I managed to post during February 2017, putting aside the late monthly update post there:

As for potential posts for March 2017, there’s an original song that I’ll try adding vocals to in the coming days. I’m considering working on some covers some more, but as I want to broaden my experiences, the original song will have higher priority right now. As for writing-related posts, the most likely one I’ll post during this month is the next chapter of Wandering Weiss, as it’s a story of mine which has been getting a substantial amount of feedback. That, and I think I’ll be more likely to post originals if I notice a considerable level of interest from my audience.

So yeah, with that, see you again in the den, people! And again, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated! ^_^

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – January 2017

So, I just realized that I failed to make this sort of update post on time, so yeah, better late than never, and I feel like I’m putting myself down if I don’t take some time to review and summarize the stuff I’ve done in a month, reflect on said stuff, and then talk about plans for the future.

Now, as for my thoughts about the past month, well, I guess school occupied my mind a lot at that month, considering how it’s the month of the start of my latest semester. That, and I guess impulse carried me away towards working on stuff, particularly music, a little too much. Again, it makes me think about how I manage my time and how prioritize stuff in my life. Really, I think I’m having that irritating mindset of my younger self, specifically the mindset which lusts for fame. Perhaps that’s why I have a hard time thinking about explaining to my family and my friends about stuff like my recent impulses, and perhaps that’s why I check out other artists’ works as much as I do lately. With that, I guess I can say that I’ve been messing up caring for myself again by focusing on working Tobby stuff and all that too much.

And to be honest, there’s this nagging desire for working up all those music and writing and art and connections and all in me even now. Though I wish that people would shake me out of it, letting myself be carried away by that excessive desire would make it harder for me to follow the people I want to get help from. I also find it hard to shift my mindset, but pain comes with resistance, so yeah, either I work enough or I don’t.

Now, before I go get more serious with trying to get some really needed rest, here are the stuff that I posted during January, including reblogs and that one post which also involved an upload during December 31 of the previous year:

Honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated, yo. 🙂

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – December 2016 + 2016 in Review

Welp, it’s been quite a year, indeed. A bunch would say that it sucked, and a bunch would say that it rocked, but if you ask me, it both sucked and rocked, and since it rocked, I’d still keep on living, yo~

So yeah, I’ve been through a lot this year…like making some strange friendships with peeps at the Professor Arc Forum, managing to get through two semesters of uni, uploading a bunch of music stuff, starting a multi-chapter RWBY fanfic, getting my heart shaken by “Kimi no Na wa.”/”Your Name.,” writing stories, trying to hammer in a better routine into my head, attempting comedy vids, translating stuff from one language to another, starting this monthly update habit, and a bunch of other stuff that you’d learn more about if you’re that enthusiastic about knowing what the freaking nuts I was doing this year…but that sort of enthusiasm would probably creep me out, now that I think about it…

Anyway, what a year, indeed. As usual, I’m looking forward to good things in the coming year, and I’m gonna keep on doing my best!

Now, here are the posts that I managed to put up during December 2016:

Hmm…I’ve been doing a lot of music stuff lately during December 2016…but still, I wanna work on writing stories some more. Also, I’m going to focus on collab covers in the near future. That, and I’ll probably upload a solo arrangement + vocal cover and/or a solo original too.

And agh, I should really cut down on the impulsiveness, indeed…

Oh, and before I completely forget about it, I mixed another cover by Shiriru. He tried to sing Chouchou-P’s “Kokoronashi,” yo~ And hey, before that, I mixed a cover by Nyusan, who tried to sing Jin’s “Outer Science” with my instrumental arrangement of it!

And now, considering the time…well, Happy New Year, dear peeps! \(^o^)

Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – November 2016

November seems to have been a month which was very stressful for me. I’d like to talk about a bunch of problems I’ve been trying to deal with, but I don’t like talking about the deeper details willy-nilly in zones like this, so yeah (And maybe those reblogs this month can be hints? Well, I guess they’re more likely to be vague hints…). And yeah, not being able to update Wandering Weiss as regularly as I used to do is disappointing, but hey, I’m still gonna update it sometime. Same goes for that promise to upload an English song cover, too. As of now, I’m at the encoding stage for a certain English song cover of mine…

And hey, I did manage to get some significant posts up this month. Aside fromWandering Weiss chapter, I managed to post three pieces of music stuff: a vocal cover of 40mP’s “Daremo Shiranai Happy End,” an original song named “Scramble of the Restless,” and a arrangement + vocal cover of Jin’s “Outer Science.” All of them had a lot of work put into them, and they wouldn’t be here without the help of other people as well.

Also, I’ve been more active in the Professor Arc Forum in FanFiction.net, I think. That, and there’s a roleplaying forum for the peeps from said forum, which I’ve been more active in as well. My feelings about that are a mix of “What am I doing with my life?” and “Well, this is freaking worthwhile!” Yeah, freaking nuts, alright…

As for house and school stuff, chores still keep on coming, and then there’s the nearing end of the semester, which means a heavy load of school-related work. With that, I don’t want to waste a lot of time here. See you again in the den, yo, and honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated.