Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – March 2017

Hello, peeps. The Overlord Bear’s back with a monthly update post.

So yeah, I haven’t posted much in this blog during March 2017. I guess you can say that it’s been a tough month for me. I’d like to talk about it, yeah, but the deeper details are stuff that I’d like to talk about only with people I trust enough. I don’t really like ranting about my problems in public, too, even though that act has been tempting to me a bunch of times. Being in the Net has gotten me remembering about how toxic I can get, you know. And even though I find it tough to talk about my problems with people like my dear parents, I find them easier to talk with compared to most people.

Anyway, time to talk about my activities as Tobby this month, although they’re not much. Regarding posted stuff, I have my cover of Crusher-P’s “ECHO,” which doesn’t have much in terms of talk in the blog post there, considering that I’ve been having trouble during that point in time. Around a week later is my reblog of a post by Fr. Mark A. Pilon, a post that got me thinking about how I’ve been living my life lately.

As for other activities as Tobby, I’ve managed to complete the audio production of an original song of mine. I’ve managed to contact some friends who are up for helping me out in making a music video for it, though the planning isn’t that solid yet, especially considering our schedules. Still, I think that we’ll be able to work on it sometime. Also, writing for Wandering Weiss is slowly but surely progressing.

And speaking of future stuff, I’m likely to upload covers in the coming month. An English song cover upload is very likely, too.

Now, regarding some real life stuff that are probably okay for me to talk about, well, I guess we can say that I need some moral support in my life. There’s a lot of tough things out there that I’ll certainly encounter, and I don’t want to corrupt my soul while I try to overcome them. I’m currently in confusion about how to deal with my issues right now, and I’m certain that I’ve messed up a bunch of time recently, but I’m sure that I can find a proper way to deal with my problems. I’ve survived and improved before, so why can’t I survive and improve some more?

Heh, I think that vagueness that my mother pointed out in me once is showing up again. I guess you can say that it’s my anxiety acting up, and I want to be cared for too, but it would be foolish if I don’t put some effort in helping myself, no? Some of the limits that I think I have are probably lies that I’ve been telling myself, too. That’s something that I’ve realized after some talks with some dear people in my life, yo.

But hey, I’m probably sending you into a spiral of confusion at this point. Don’t worry too much, though. I’ll certainly find a way to properly deal with my problems, and I ask for God Almighty to help me with that. I’ve been helped by Him before, so yeah, my faith lives and will live on. 🙂

And with that, see you again in the den, peeps. And again, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated.

Hidden Apostasy

Now this gets me thinking about how I’ve been living lately, alright.

Littlemore Tracts

Great Sin of our Day –

In our contemporary culture, we can see the great evil of what Pope Benedict referred to as the dictatorship of relativism. Not only is every culture seen as purely relative in terms of its particular cultural values and cultural expressions as compared with the values and cultural expressions of every other culture, but good and evil as such has become purely relative, if not at times quite interchangeable. What is good for some people is evil for others, not just subjectively but objectively. Isaiah the Prophet long ago condemned this kind of religious and cultural degradation: “Woe unto them that call evil good, and good evil; that put darkness for light, and light for darkness.” One important hallmark of this modern cultural and moral relativism, I believe, is the readiness of intelligent people to easily excuse Christian apostasy and to do so by using…

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Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – February 2017

Indeed, I’m late with this sort of post again. My mind’s been in a tangle lately, one which I threw myself in pretty much. And hey, I thank God very much for good priests and good parents in my life, for I’d be in a worse tangle right now without them.

Anyway, along with my second late monthly update post, this blog didn’t have much activity during the past month. Studies have been taking a considerable amount of my time, and although it can be difficult, it’s still something which I consider important. That, and I haven’t been putting a lot of effort into managing my time better. It’s irritating to know that I repeated such mistakes, but it’s better to admit it and calmly work better than panic and make the problem worse. And yes, I feel some sadness at not spending a lot of time on things like working on stories and such and hanging out with online friends, but I have to make important sacrifices in order to be a truly better person. Perhaps this month and maybe even further months would have reduced Tobby activity, considering the likely progression of my education, but on the bright side, I think I’ll be able to learn how to manage my time and energy better that way.

Now, about the stuff I managed to post during February 2017, putting aside the late monthly update post there:

As for potential posts for March 2017, there’s an original song that I’ll try adding vocals to in the coming days. I’m considering working on some covers some more, but as I want to broaden my experiences, the original song will have higher priority right now. As for writing-related posts, the most likely one I’ll post during this month is the next chapter of Wandering Weiss, as it’s a story of mine which has been getting a substantial amount of feedback. That, and I think I’ll be more likely to post originals if I notice a considerable level of interest from my audience.

So yeah, with that, see you again in the den, people! And again, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated! ^_^

Wandering Weiss – Chapter 9

Wandering Weiss

a RWBY fanfiction by The Overlord Bear

Summary: Were it not for a wandering musician’s cynical words, Weiss Schnee would have continued on the path to becoming a Huntress. Now, a disinherited Weiss lives as a wandering singer, trying to be a hero in a different manner, with that wandering musician named Jaune Arc as a companion…


Previous Chapter: Remembering Boundaries

First Chapter: A Change of Path


Chapter 9: Refreshing Rain


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Milestones, Turning Points, and Activity Updates – January 2017

So, I just realized that I failed to make this sort of update post on time, so yeah, better late than never, and I feel like I’m putting myself down if I don’t take some time to review and summarize the stuff I’ve done in a month, reflect on said stuff, and then talk about plans for the future.

Now, as for my thoughts about the past month, well, I guess school occupied my mind a lot at that month, considering how it’s the month of the start of my latest semester. That, and I guess impulse carried me away towards working on stuff, particularly music, a little too much. Again, it makes me think about how I manage my time and how prioritize stuff in my life. Really, I think I’m having that irritating mindset of my younger self, specifically the mindset which lusts for fame. Perhaps that’s why I have a hard time thinking about explaining to my family and my friends about stuff like my recent impulses, and perhaps that’s why I check out other artists’ works as much as I do lately. With that, I guess I can say that I’ve been messing up caring for myself again by focusing on working Tobby stuff and all that too much.

And to be honest, there’s this nagging desire for working up all those music and writing and art and connections and all in me even now. Though I wish that people would shake me out of it, letting myself be carried away by that excessive desire would make it harder for me to follow the people I want to get help from. I also find it hard to shift my mindset, but pain comes with resistance, so yeah, either I work enough or I don’t.

Now, before I go get more serious with trying to get some really needed rest, here are the stuff that I posted during January, including reblogs and that one post which also involved an upload during December 31 of the previous year:

Honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated, yo. 🙂

Tobby tried to arrange and sing “Haiboku no Shounen”

Comparing this arrange to the original makes me feel like I still have a lot to learn and a long way to go when it comes to making worthwhile music, but hey, the journey of an artist requires an audience and their honest constructive feedback, so yeah. 🙂

Also, I’d like to express how I felt good about working on this, particularly on the instrumental. The LMMS samples aren’t really high-tier, as far as I’ve observed, and I’ll need a lot more in-depth technical knowledge when it comes to instrumental arrangement and audio engineering, but I enjoy the way the instruments blend with each other. The piano feels like it has a nice rhythm, particularly in the hooks/choruses. The violin, the electric guitar, and the percussion sound like they add an emotional rock feel when they blend in. The eighth-note bass guitar strumming…now that got me valuing bass instruments even more!

Regarding recording the vocals, I feel like I’ve been managing to add emotion into my main vocal singing some more. I think I need some more practice when it comes to working up harmonies, though…

As for working on the vocal mix and the audio mastering, I utilized the Echo effect in Audacity some more, I appreciated boosting most of the bass and cutting most of the treble in my main vocal track some more, I did some attempts at subtle Reverb and Harmonic Enhancer use on the main vocal track, I tried to turn the harmony tracks into Reverbed and Delayed ghosts again, and the Hard Limiter use happens again during my attempts at mastering. Oh, and I don’t think I’ve told you about my recent attempts at working audio panning and stereo imagery, so yeah, there.

And yeah, though I still have a lot to learn and a long way to go, I feel like I’m progressing!

And, uh…this was uploaded while I’m in the middle of recovering from a cold…which probably seems more like a very difficult idea, considering how I manage my time lately. That, and the vocal recording + vocal mixing + audio mastering happened some days before that, so…yeah, time to get some rest for some time.

And now, here’s this arrangement + vocal cover’s mp3. And if you wanna try singing with my instrumental arrangement, then here’s the offvocal.

Honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated, yo! \(^o^)

Ghost Rule – TOB Tagalog Cover

May bagong Tagalog cover na naman ako, yo! Ah, at ang nakaraang Tagalog cover ay noong mga walong buwan na nakaraan…

Anyway, ang kanta ngayon ay isang kanta ni DECO*27, at…hmm…naaalala ko kung paano ko tinatrato ang sarili ko noong kamakailan lang…tulad nga ng sabi ko sa description ng mga video uploads ng cover na ito: Parang masyadong dedicated ako dito, ah?

Well, hanggang dito na muna ang usapan tungkol diyan. Parang may kulang sa akin kung pag-uusapan ko ng mas detalyado ang mga efforts ko sa paggawa ng cover na ito at iba pa habang sinasakripisyo ng matindi ang kalusugan ko at iba pang mga mas mahalagang bagay kasi. Kailangan ko na muna mag-isip ng mabuti at makipag-usap sa mga mabuti…

Ah, at heto na din ang mp3 ng cover na ito. Heto din ang link papunta sa lyrics sheet. Pakicredit ako, TOB/The Overlord Bear, kung gusto mong gamitin ang mga lirika ko, okay?

Beatitudes and Revolution

Here’s something that resonates with me and how I’ve been growing lately, yo.

Littlemore Tracts

4th Sunday of the Year

One of the recurrent challenges posed by non-believers to Christians , or even by believers struggling with their faith is how can one believe in a good creator God when there is so much evil in the world. I can appreciate the depth of this challenge to faith when it is reported that each year there are 45 million abortions worldwide. It is also understandable that even Christians may well question why God does not somehow intervene and put an end to this carnage. Even the Apostles asked Jesus in the boat when a storm came up and he was asleep, “Do you not care that we are perishing!” So anyone can honestly question why God tolerates such massive evils in His creation.

Now the response of the believing Christian when confronted with such massive evil has to begin from two firm beliefs based upon the…

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With the remake arrange, Tobby tried to sing “Torinoko City”

衝動と思案が交差する地点~

Yeah, I had a considerable amount of impulse in me when I decided to produce this. Perhaps there’s some good in making music uploads more regular, but there are some other stuff that I want to work on, like some stories of mine. Of course, school, chores, and other responsibilities are there as well. Better keep it balanced, yo.

Anyway, working on this song cover involved me trying to sate my curiosity about how to sing the above song better than my previous uploaded attempt. As most of those recent curiosity moments have resulted, I ended up singing the song better with the instrumental in a different key (one semitone higher than the original key, in this case). As for mixing, I’d like to mention my observation regarding how my voice sounds clearer to my ears when I cut down on the 500-600 Hz frequencies. That’s just one step and not all the steps, though. I had struggles with maintaining a balance between the volume of the instrumental track and the volume of the vocal tracks, and I wonder about whether or not I put a little too much bass boosting into the main vocal track. My attempts at mastering the cover mixdown, with said mastering attempts often involving the use of a hard limiter, probably dealt with that issue somewhat, though.

Also, considering how my nose was feeling somewhat runny during the production days of this cover, I think I’ll be lessening my singing time and increasing my sleep time in the near future. Being lazy is bad, yeah, but being too busy is also bad, yo.

And now, here’s this cover’s mp3. And of course, honest constructive feedback is highly encouraged and will be highly appreciated, yo~